CeLesteLoveJesus <3

Loves doesn't complain

2009-11-26T17:05:00.002+08:00

He~llo! here i am to clean my blog's web! know it has loads of webs but YesYes, its cleaned! (: but seriously, i've no idea what to blog about. blogging has been a 'not-in' thing for me liao. but who knows, one day i'll be back to update everyday? sotsot de. but yeap.

Just wanna thank God for someone in my life. Thank You for being so presistence. Thank You for ur Loves. Thank You for always giving me to bully u. DumDum~!! ^^ but well, i think its quite shock to us or maybe others as well? but someone told me its not surprise at all cos this person have a vision that me and him were tgt. i still rmb, im super confident that i told few of em who asked me and i said a cfm 'NO' but well, guess what happen now. when i think of it, it quite funny and cute. and i know, ALL were asking us how we got tgt but we still cant came out w an explaination. we seriously do not know how to say so yeap, don ask why le ar. ^^

AND i can smell CHRISTMAS~! its reaching and im loving it! <3

*Loves doesn't complain.

2009-10-15T17:07:00.004+08:00

He~llo! im so sorry for not updating my blog for billions days. x: FINALLY~! blogger is alive! haha, anw. will be back to update at blogger, don really know how to update in onsugar. x: so yeap yeap~!

alrights, just wanna to update everyone about my Thai's trip. really enjoyed myself over there and YES, if u were to ask me whether i wanna go there again and my ans to u was YES! i even wanna stay over there, if i can, i wanna to tear away my passport. it may sound silly but i do loves e ppl over there. one week have pass since im back~ im still missing em badly. i still rmb e 1st day we are there, we miss home badly but when we wanna fly back, we tears and don wanna come back to our own country. think of it, i just feel like tearing again not cos emo but those 2 weeks, its really a memories days for us thou there was a communication barries. x: and yeap, i shall let e photos do e talking bah but just a few, wanna see more, visit my facebook den! ^^

*Nevertheless, i am continually with You.

Lost but was found

2009-07-11T10:45:00.003+08:00

He~llo! Morn~ its time to updated my nejected blog le. ^^ but alrights ar, but not e longest i didnt blog nor. pardon me mah, thou i know im not as busy as Pst Kong but i've been rushing projects and projects and still projects. past few days only slept for 5-6hrs cos of projects. im fainting but nvm, im HAPPY that i've amended one of e whole presentation le. SO HAPPY and yea, at least one presentation has finally so called done? 2 more to come butbut, not included e report and reflection. x: deadline is getting near~ man~ but nvm, thank God for some frens in sch. (:

ohh well~ im disappoint of my wallet u know. just got in less den 3 mth, and aiyo, what a disappointment, but nvm, will be getting a new one soon, YES its soon wor! (: Paid paid come 1st. but paid was delay, really delay till cmi until ..... arg~! and i want a watch, u know a watch? x: never wore a watch for years. *blinkblink black watches* but slowly slowly, paid wasnt that much but nvm, im prosper i'll be even more prosperous cos He's my Provider~! (: YESYES~! :D

*Lost But was Found~ (:

Genting~

2009-06-21T12:09:00.005+08:00

GENTING was cool~ coldcold place. well, if i were to stay there think i'll grow fat. eat, sleep and play so yeap~ (: nothing to shop thats why its bored but brought a cap. (: had fun there thou. and i feel that im so brave to play all those WOW rides. Space shot, Flying Coaster and more... and got a bad blueblack on my left arms. *painful* but well, i enjoyed e theme park. im proud that e 2's SOH sista and LEE JINYAN and myself. we played all e rides tgt, scream tgt. HAHA~ anw, for more fotos pls refer to my facebooked. ^^

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86047&id=526898491&l=5212f630df (:

and i cant wait for sept and Dec to come still. *stay tune for e location* woah~

We're in e Mid June liao. This few mths seriously is packed. i cant breathe, i don have a free day. but nvm, as days goes by, BE CHEERFUL! *SMILE(:*

*Deeper in Love w You. <3

Awesome Morn PM~!

2009-06-10T18:08:00.003+08:00

He~llo! Awesome few days so far~ Loves it! its PM wk but i only manage to go for mon-wed as for thurs and fri, im missing it cos i'll be in a COLDy place(make sure its cold). x: anw, Morn PM was just awesome, nothing but awesome~ Pst Tan share a word w us this 2 days, and i was keeping hard in my mind of what he said this few days. but im still doubting of what im doing now, is this really my calling? years upon years, im just wondering. Yea, Vision is yet for an appointed time BUT..... (:

anw, im super duper happy. i met up w some of my BELOVED W220 last sat before svc, thou there's only 5 ppl but guess what, im still happy~ and yea, i've been seeing JiAhUi this few days. haha. Loves her~ <3>

and ohh man~ tsktsktsk~ theres really gone my JUNE hols, packed w projects, work and events. of all e JUNE mth, i only have 1 emo free day which i'll be gg CYCLE~ haha. why liddat? tell me tell me. x: but nevertheless, i'll be self-declaring hols which my hols not yet started from tonight onwards. haha. now its e right time to go to Genting i guess? make sure there's cold if not fainted. x: and ohhohh~ GUESS WHAT! Sept me want go Thailand to do community service, and cool, XiaoCao and me fill up e form liao BUT sianed must go thru interview. *PASS PLS* x:

*nothing else could ever compare.

rainbow after rain

2009-06-02T18:07:00.002+08:00

Today is 2 June~ sorry but im not random. but CeLeste is super disappointed. just don wish to talk today. this feeling who knows beside me and her? no one support us when we're "sweating" behind e back of all. we're just tired and afriad of 'sth'. just wish that e date will come quickly so it can end quickly. projects and events and stuff~ not gonna mention what happen but in e midst of it, we're still encourage each other and i really thank God for this friend that He've place in my life. guess what, im proud of e both of us, thou its 90% complete but still i still think both of us did well for what we're being assign of. GOOD JOB, GAL~ andand not forgetting e rest of e 8 ldrs. (: know all of us is looking forward to 16JUNE but lets run this 'race' tgt bah! (:

BUT, let this idoitic feelings fly off bah, and let rainbow shine in my heart just like e Rainbow appear after the rain. :D cos im HAPPY GAL~ and guess what, morn thou im tired during e long trip back and forth but still im really happy to see e person i missed and im sorry to make u worries. *ni shuo le* and im really happy when i saw him. who will know this feeling again? thoughts came into my mind again but nvm, e rest of e days or rather years, i shall lift everything into God's hands and trust in Him. (:

*lil princess in your eyes.

BUSY June~

2009-06-01T17:50:00.004+08:00

He~llo! *opps. im sorry peepz~ i didnt realise i actually didnt blog for wks ar. cant blame thou cos busy busy busy leh. x: *excuses* but seriously, this few mths i could be rather BUSY. but as what i've promised, i'll try to meet up anyone of u if requested~ Busy is definitely have but i gonna spent time w e ppl ard me and sometime gonna feed my soul too. *Balance is e key~ *

andand, guess what? thou JUNE and JULY is a Busy mth for me but i just wanna go my shopshop and watch movies! loads of movies coming out plusplus GSS~!! and thats mean pocket gonna have one BIG hole neh unless ANGELs suddenly pop out. but nvm ar, sometime should pamper ourselves. :D

and cooly~ i'll be gg GENTING on my last wk of sch which haven started hols yet and yet i self declare hols. woah~! seriously, cant wait for GENTING as nowsaday spore super duper HOT neh, and one period of times kept raining and make me fall sick, high fever etc. and guess what i've not fully recover yet. -.- 3 wks liao neh! but nvm, i'll be Healed in e name of Jesus! (:

lastly, i thank God for few ppl ard me. THANK YOU is all i wanna said. no needs to mention e name cos its in my heart. <3> after so long. so HAPPY to see her again! and yea, can see u every sat le. *BIG SMILES. :D* I LOVE JIAHUI~ <3

*Smile is not created, we've it e moment we're born. (: *

Smile is what a day called.

2009-05-05T23:40:00.003+08:00

He~llo! CeLeste is here again. Sch has started and it is 3rd wk le and guess what. im packed w projects and projects and still projects. imaging almost everyday have mtg. and soon and sooner my sat gonna be gone. ): sat is kinda my rest day ar. but.... aiyoyo, what to do, never do can... never get good grade only lor. haha. x: but pray that i can grad w what i want, seriously. thou i doesnt know how but gonna do my best and God will do e rest. yea, its kinda stress and tired due to some reason but guess what? CeLeste is strong and is always strong. (: and thru this projects and stuff, i conclude one thing. "sometime one gonna give in inorder to get things done." and being a ldrs isnt a easy things, thou i've been a CGC for quite sometime. it is very hard to get everyone tgt. be it at everywhere. *random thoughts. x:

0.o Yeapie~! Guess what!! YEAness~! CeLeste finally brought her PinkyLappy~! woah~! :D i dono how but have faith man. 3 years of installment and 5 years of warrantly. -.- but time flyyys. haha. so right now, most precious things is my PinkyLappy~! andand, aiyoyo. i think its heavy very heavy. for me ar. but im happy cos i can lighten down Xiaocao and XiaoHua's hands le. i can play a part to bring my PinkyLappy to sch and out for projects too. (:

^^ so yeayea. gonna get super duper busy during this term but its alrights. nevertheless, i still gonna catch up w some of my dearest which i super long didnt meet. pls smile if u know im talking about u!!! (: just ringring me and i'll try to avail myself for anyone of u. (:

*Smile is what a day called. (:

skies.

2009-04-14T20:33:00.003+08:00

He~llo! Saw this on last wed. what a beautiful skies that i ever saw. e moment i saw e skies, WOWwowWOW~! imm i tot im in Heaven, but sad to say, im not. x: don u think its nice? its so Heavenly~!

Anw. sch have started and guess what? cher said this term will be our most busier term of our year in all e terms. ohh well, we shall see but heard from what he've told us think i guess it must be really a busier term of all e terms. i dono how, started to stress at e start of e 1st day but nvm. *smile. (: and yea, times fly~! its 1 year le, still have 1 more year to go. cant wait for e hols to come and e day of grad. (:

*blanked and lost.

HK~!

2009-04-02T22:25:00.019+08:00

He~llo! im back~! haha. seriously, im missing HK weather. x: guess what, everyday im telling someone w/o fail that im super duper hot cos of e weather over here. and i cant get use to it of e weather, i would go back to HK for their weather but not their ppl. x: those ppl who ask me should know why. haha, but seriously, we're kinda special over there, e 5 of us. us w e short and slipper everywhere we go but all e HKies wear kinda nice but what to do, we tot there will be hot but who knows its super cold, 16-17degree. x: we wore jacket thruout and i cover 5 blankets to sleep. -.- so can u imaging but seriously i really miss their weather. (:

and yea, of cos there's fotos but pardon me cos i kinda lazy to upload here cos its kinda slow so i've uploaded it in my facebook, so go to my facebook and check out e fotos that we've took. (: and also credit to my dear Cheryl meimei for lending me her cam. so nice of her. (: and yea, of cos, there're more fotos but i have not received all yet so yea.

Overall, i can say that definitely it was fun. and guess what, it was my 1st time taking a plane so i was kinda 'suan gu' but haha. 1st time, im so near e moon and im above e stars. i also believe that more will come, and really thank God for blessing over this trip. God have blessed me w this trip that i don even have to pay any single cents but im FULLY blessed. and to those who haven or have completed BF, i really believe that Your Blessing or whatever thing that u needa breakthru is on ur way so yea, JIAYOU~! i dono what to say any further but one thing i know His Loves is always here w me. when im faithless, He's always Faithful. He's strong when im weak. He's there to carry me thru e storm. i don have to walk in e journey of 'fire' cos He'll carry me thru e Journey. and im thankful that i've a Daddy God who really Loves me unconditionally. <3

*even when e mountain tembles and a thousand falls, i'll stand w You forever.

Sentosa.

2009-03-23T12:43:00.006+08:00

He~llo! *opps*. Firstly, i gonna apologize for not being updated my blog which cover loads of web. haha. but nvm, told u guyz i'll be updating soon and here u go~! =D

Hmms. actually i forgotten what i did for e past 1 mth le. but its alrights, finally i've finished my exam and 1 year have past, still got 1 more year to go and den thats it for my life in ITE! and yea, im having 1 mth vacation also. i tot i'll be super free during my vacation BUT i was wrong, im packed w stuff. x: and yea, counting down to a few days, JUST a few days and i gonna FLY~! so excited and looking forward to it as it is my 1st time FLYING~! and i really Thank God for e ALL e Blessing that He've given me. and Praise e Lord, i've completed my BF and wanting to increase! God is so Awesome~!

And Yea, i went sentosa last wed w a few of my cgm. its was fun. Thanks Guyz~! i shall let e photos do e talking bah. (:

YEAness. (: thats all, for more photos, go to my fb bah. enjoyed and have fun myself w all ppl there. Thanks for everything~! and yea, i shall update more when i got back. Take cares. <3

*Thank u for e LOVE that u've shown me.

stars

2009-02-20T00:13:00.006+08:00

*Starries. BlinkBlink.*

Stars is a 'WOW' things to me since young. whenever saw any lil stars, smile(: brights out of my face. know its has been random but been looking out at e skies and saw stars. one night, i saw loads of stars and i feel so Heavenly. i just dono why i feel that whenever i look at e stars, someone is just looking at me like u know someone who is my "Angels" who is watching over me protecting me. and whenever i look at e skies, i thought of him. whichever part of e world we are, we'll always see each other thru e skies and in our heart.

and has been sharing things w ppl that God has really place em into my life. This and that. alot alot things(secrets) that really no one know beside my Daddy God and my HelloKitty and of cos e person that i've shared. and also thanks for sharing too. (: things have never been easy and feelings has been mixed. But im sure, overcoming soon. haha. cos all this are a small tiny seed for me. and FYI, pls do not judge a post by what u read/heard. what u think might be diff from what i said. (:

*There's a special stars in everyone life.

Morning PM.

2009-02-15T22:02:00.008+08:00

Morning Prayer Meeting is super duper Awesome. all days woke up early even before e sun is out and yea, Praise e Lord~! i manage to make it every morning w/o fail. so HAPPY! thank God that LHeart of God' is just 3 stop from bdk. (: and just wanna Thank God for strength. everyday w/o fail im out till quite late and been sleeping for hours so really thank God for strength and protection. and of cos i wanna thank God for someone who has been acc me to pm, e person is none other den 'ELIZ' and of cos 'JOANNE'. thank God for this sweet lil blessing that He've given it to me. Both of u have been such a awesome ones. haha. enjoy e fellowship w both of u of cos. LTBB and JTPP~! x: and yea, i thank God for this whole weeks, im BLESSED. nothing can say how much im happy but im just happy. haha. *BIG SMIILES. =D

ohoh. HAPPY BELATED V.DAY! after so much of thinking and confusion i 've decided to spent my v.day w God, someone and of cos my Dearest KellyDarLing! thanks for all e gifts. its a busy day, run here and there to meet ppl. but it was fun! (: and im sorry to someones if i hurt u, im not giving excuses cos 'ai qing shi bu ke yi mian qiang de'. somethings can give up but somethings which cant give up and this is e thing which u can give up. i believe Time will tell. don waste ur time, serious. (: im not alone on this day thou i don have valentine, but im Blessed during svc and cgm. and yea, to another someone(u know who u are), don worries, i believe u and me will find our special someone someday. and i also believe u'll find a even betta one den e person who u're thinking of. and thank u for being w me when i need u, rmb, i'll be here too when u need me. yea? (:

and to all my beloved Frens. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY~! thank You for being my frens and those who haven got attached yet, i pray that u'll find ur special someone. and i believe next year u'll spent ur v.day w ur special someone. haha. once again. i LOVEs every single one of YOU! <3

*somethings which may need to give up, just let it go like a balloon.

2009-02-04T00:20:00.006+08:00

Hmms. woah~! Guess what, everybody! its February liao. 0.0 and its like another month have pass. man~! someone once told me that 'time will passed real fast when u're getting older'. and man, its getting true. feel that time is flying fast. one blink and its FEB and CNY has ended! and oh no, March is reaching mean im dieing super soon. x: and gg to sch have not been a motivating things for me le. feel so sians everyday. just wanna grad and byebye. and yea. CNY has ended. and of cos. its fotos times. (: but hor. this year its super duper sians. no mood to have e CNY day. and i didnt get to wear my dress that i've brought. ): and im sick during CNY. sians alot of ways. and im still sick right now. e longest and irriating illness i ever had. but nvm, i'll be heal in e Mightly Name of Jesus! Amen! (: alrights bah. i shall stop here and fotos times. (: *PS: its not e post that is too long, its all cos of e fotos. x:

0.o i alrdy minimise e fotos le. still have many many more but shall call it a day of e post. haha. 0.o its has been a long time since i updated my blog in such a nice timing. but anw. im so thankful of everything everyday w/o failed! im smiling to every situation. indeed whateva im gg thru now, i may not know why or what, but i know and i know my God is even greater den all this situation. all this is just a bit of peanuts. just feel that those thing which has been bordering and troubling me is like a lil devil in my life. and yes, u're a lil devil in my life and i doesnt care le cos i feel so stupid to think of all this things and leave in slient mode. so instead why not just SMILE and move on~! (: and yea. im thankful. thankful for e things ard me. feel so happy that my Daddy God is w me. i gonna believe that i gonna be stronger like never before. im not that lil gal that people may look or think. but im a gal who is gonna be stronger! cos my God is Greater den everything! and cooool, i feel that im like catching up those people who i haven been fellowship w for a long time. (: i want more of it! i Love and treasure every single min of e fellowship. (: Thank You Jesus! <3

*Burst it and its gone no more.

Thank God.

2009-01-22T13:42:00.004+08:00

Hmms. He~llo! (: im here again. or rather always here, haha. just that didnt blog only. i doesnt know why Blogging has not been a thing that i use to do in e past. i believe last time, i've been blogging almost everyday and also e post not "long" de hor. i've lost e passion in blogging le. x: but nvm, betta den those who didnt blog their blog for millions years ar. haha! =D but yea, im sure i'll update more often cos i've promise someone. x: yeap~!

And oh yea, Thank God for e ppl ard me too. My Dad, ah ma and my auntiesss. Thank You for Loving me, Thank You for doting me, Thank You for everything u all have done in my life. i never ever said THANK YOU to all of u before beside receiving 'angbaos' during CNY and Birdae. haha. But yea, i knew that u all will never come to my blog or rather u all dono how to use mah, thats why. nvm ar, liink heart to heart mah, hor? =D and oh yea, tues didnt go sch but instead went to meet my xiao yi cos she called me and ask me wanna go shopping mah den i say ok lor. x: oh man~! but nvm ar. woah~! we went swenson for lunchy! woahwoah~! another great meal for e week. haha. *blessing is all ard. and yea, went shoppy den xiao yi bless me a top and a skirt. woah~! *told u blessing is all ard. haha!

Hmms. woah~ho! anw, seriously im thankful for everything. thank God for e Blessing that He've given me. i've lost of word when i actually counted e amount that i received from my dad and all my aunties. cos CNY is ard e corner so they gave me money to buy clothes. and tell u all a secret, my bro doesnt have. *evil laugh!* aiyo, he so rich. haha. but Guess what, e amount is more den what i've alrdy give to my BF and also its more den what i've pledge! WOW a billions~! i was like, God, YOU'RE SO SUPER DUPER AWESOME~! but most of all, thats not e impt part, i LOVE giving God, i LOVE building a BIGBIG house for Him, i LOVE to worship Him, i LOVE His word, i LOVE His wonderful LOVE that always shower over me and of cos i LOVE Him! <3

**ohoh, today is 22 Jan hor. Guess what!! JOANNE is FLYING back tonight~! MISS HER SO MUCH~! gonna catch u. hahahaha~! (: YEA~!

*This Journey is long but all i know that You're w me every single moment.

*Decision is still in my hands, awaiting me to decide. and im all confuss by all e decision that i gonna decided. Final Decision doesnt mean its Final. it'll determine my lifetime. But its stupid to run away. but one thing i know is that i've surrender. i no longer bother e things ard me or rather things that does not concern me de. everything is a question marks right now. e things that makes me wanna leave but think of it, it so stupid.

Fellowship.

2009-01-10T23:17:00.006+08:00

Hmms. Alrights! Let me start e "1st entires" of e year. anw, today i must say i did enjoy myself alot alot. seriously, i didnt have such a great fellowship before since many many many millions years. and for svc i really feel that i was bless by Pst John. it is really a great and awesome msg. *I'll not be Judge according to what i did but i'll Judge according to what im called to do.* 0.0 WOW WOW WOW~! will come to that point soon when i go e 2nd svc. (:

and yea, guess what, by right i suppose to go for wedding but by left end up yea u know right. so prepare everything le and almost prepare to go out but didnt, chn all of a sudden. know Terry and Edmund is mtg so instead went to meet em at MS and yea, we went to have our lunch cum breakfast or u can say cum dinner as well. stunned that Terry bring us to a place where we cant even imaging and that is "Dian Xiao Er". i was like huh, are u kidding me? but nono. we're really there to eat. and yea, it was great, e food and stuff. as usual e jokes and everything make me think back of e past fellowship. but yea, miss those days where we went out to fellowship after CG after svc w/o fail w e rest. One word- THANK YOU for everything once again! alrights, back to that, and yea, was so FULL and was telling em, im really very thankful that i've been eating good stuff this few weeks. last week i ate 'Crystal Jade' and this week 'Dian Xiao Er'. and it e most ex thing i ever eat in my 18 life. woah~! and yea, of cos. Thanks TerryPa for e treat, e "Da Er". andand "Zhong Er" e emo bro. -.- Thank You both of u for being e longest CGM, and u guyz will always be e best BROTHERS in Christ in my life. it'll always and always be. no matter what gonna happen e next few mths, changes may come that is for sure cos life will have changes but still i believe we'll met up often. but wait, don think too much 1st. and also we cant be CGM for life right? but we can be Child of God for life! yea, so lets move on no matter what may come. *Smile(: and Move on~! alrights, here're some pic that was taken. not many but still a memories to me. (:

e food of e day are: DuckDuck. Shark Fin. Fish. and dono what that called something that live in e sea. and dessert, e most "wonderful" i ever had, hahahah! but proud of me cos i finished e dessert thou it so "wonderful". but overall, its awesome! and yea. after that, we drank CCC~!

And ohohoh~! do u believe this sushi is i made it de? 0.o but wait. thou i didnt cook e rice and stuff but i ROLL and put e stuff into e sushi, k! at least somehow i made one hor. wahahaha~! but for sure, i'll make my 'Ai Xin Bian Dan'. (: So Yeayea! That e day. Thank God for e day as well. and tmr gonna have a great day for sure~! AMEN!!!! (:

A Year of Joy.

2009-01-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

*A Year of Joy. (:

Smiling in every situation.

Thank You

2008-12-29T22:45:00.004+08:00

Hmms. He~llo! think i gonna say my last word or rather my last entries of e year 2008. (: Sorry for not updating for millions years BUTbut i promise i'll 'try' to update as much as possible. so yeayea! i gonna say 2008 have not been a really good year for me, but im still smiling thru cos i know my God is BIGGER den everything! I'll forget and say goodbye to e past things that have been following me. Just like what Pst preach on last sat. "I'll always place my best foot infront!". YeaYea~! past gogogogogogo, i step u and kick u farfar away le. And of cos, it'll never be complete w/o saying my greatest apprecaition to all of YOU!

Dearest JiAhUi: Thanks for everything u've done in my life. Thanks for always letting this Joy of You flowing out, whenever i saw u, im just so happy. Thanks for bringing me to W220 and knowing Our Daddy God in Heaven. It'll never be a regret of knowing You! Thanks for guiding and loving me all this while. Jiayou too and will always keep u in prayers. (: Find Your Prince soonsoon~!

Wonderful Yuzhen: Thanks once again for everything u've done. Thanks for ur guiding all this while, and thanks for being a great and wonderful leader in my life and in e CG. is always keeping u in my prayers. Find Your Prince soonsoon~! (:

PSLE de Ronald: haha, PSLE. must Jiayou for ur PSLE hor. ah boy ar ah boy. x: anw. Thanks for all e things u've done in e CG too. Thanks for e Love, Patient, Concern You have for us. is always praying for u too. Find Your Princess soonsoon too~! (:

Double C: My Double C ar. haha. thanks for everything! its has been a much joy knowing u. sharing all e things that we have in common, great mind think alike, yea? and of cos, long journey still counting on. lets cont this Double C's joruney tgt. (: also find Your Prince soon ar. (:

Flowing Edmund: 3 years since i know u. great frenship and i believe this frenship still cont. my "quarreling" partner in e CG. hahahaha. =D thanks for being a great Bro in this CG, my flowing and longest member. (:

Manhooding Joel: Thanks for ur manhooding and all. thanks for serving God in a Special way. always w/o fail carrying bags for e sista. and yea, ur great laughter bring joys~! (:

JJ Junjie: hold a concert and we'll be there to support u. haha. thanks for being a great bro in e CG too. cont to trust God in every ways. i really believe God will bring u to a greater level where u cant even imaging. Jiayou~! (:

Botak Edwin: botak alrdy ar. nvm nvm. u're still so handsome in e eye of our Daddy God and of cos in our eyes. haha. thanks for e laughter and for always helping us to do fortfit whenever there's fortfit. so yea, jiayou in ur camp, i believe You Edwin Tan gonna shine in ur camppy~! (:

Twinny Cheryl: gal ar. Thanks for this lil gal. my mei mei. we look alike? haha. cont to love God and come and join us always alrights? hope we can know each other more and more. thanks for e love too. (:

Joker Simon: Jia Ba Buay~! wahahahaha. always w/o fail bring joke to us. those who are sad will get enlighten by u leh. seriously, thanks for brining e laughter to us. don forget to jia baba alrights? =D

KeLLyDarLing: Dar~! Thank God for letting em to know u when im in nitec. haha. i still rmb but i thank u for ur Loves and everything u've done. Lets Jiayou for our studies bah, i believe we CAN do it de. and yea, cont to Love God and hunger for more of Him alrights? YeaYea, Lets run this journey tgt. (: hope u'll join us back soon~!

Lovelys Jessica: aiyoyo. didnt see u for quite some time too. i miss u badly. just wanna thank u for everything too. thou we may not see each other too often but i know that this friendship that both of us have is still cont and cont. lets meet up real soon~! my dear gal. (:

Missing Joanne: JO~~~! i Miss You so badly! looking forward to e day of ur returning. miss our last supper our last dinner. miss e walk after BS and miss e talk w u. i got so much thing to share w u. and thanks for sharing w me ur BIGGEST secret and yea i shall reveal my BIGGEST secret too BUT its when u're back. haha. so honour ar. let catch up when u're back. MISS and LOVING YOU~! (:

And to all those who i've not mentioned: Thanks for being my friends all this while. be it boy or gal, I LOVE YOU! thanks for all e fellowship and everything. e smile e joy e love. woah~! You guyz are so great! i really LOVE and apprecaited ALL OF YOU who is out there! Thank God for e lil Blessing that He've given me! (:

Hmms. and yea. this 2008 is yea, 2008. But no looking back. only look forward. i know greater thing are yet to be done so here i am looking forward. Habakkuk 3:19, "The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills." AMEN! this is e verse of e year. (: But most of all, i wanna say THANK YOU my DEAREST DADDY GOD in Heaven, thanks for everything. nth could express out of me but You're my everything. e one who i can really turn to. and THANK YOU JESUS for dying on e cross for me. and of cos THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT for always guiding me all this while, w/o You i think i'll not go any further. so yea, once again, no word can discrible my feelings but I LOVE ALL OF YOU and THANK YOU for everything! and i really Believe all of us will have a greater Year in 2009! Enjoy e year and e joruney! (:

*e walk and e journey.

FLY~!

2008-12-09T20:21:00.007+08:00

*Hidden Feeling are buried.*And i'll FLY~~~! Give me wings so that i'll be able to FLY to You.

* SoCloseButYetSoFar.*
There're certain things which are SoCloseButYetSoFar.
Many things which i wanna say.

Countless decision have yet to Decide.

But Be Aware CeLeste is BACK into ACTION~!

X'mas is coming on e way.

Beautiful Tree are all ard.

Inside my Heart there's a x'mas tree.

Lights can turn out to become Smile. (:

Thank You Jesus~!

Celeste is HAPPY~!

2008-11-09T23:36:00.003+08:00

*CeLeste is HAPPY~! *

and yea, she need to be HAPPY. there's a reason behind it and that is really a secret! and of cos, she realise she cant be emo anymore. no more. emo post will all be gone in my 'secret blog'. i also realise sth. Do u know how to make urself Smile when u're down? "Look at ur own photo!" but of cos its a smiling u, don look at one of e photo when u're not smiling. it'll lead u to more tears. -.- seriously. everytime wheneva i saw my own face in my phone in everywhere there's ME, i SMILE. no joke. its not zhi lian, alrights? x: and there's still many ways of making me smile. so yea, thats e way,

*SMILE. (:*

Balloon.

2008-11-08T11:07:00.005+08:00

*There're certain things we can give up. But There're certain things we cant give up. There's a Balloon in my Hands, gonna let it go off. no more. *FLY~!* There's a secret which no one knows but i told someone cos i trusted and oh well, we shared secret w each other. and HOHO, i know YOURS. You're e 1st and last one to know. but this secret of mine, will stop right now just like e balloon in my lil hands flying off. and it will never be back. no more. and i Thank God i didnt tell anyone about it. Someone told me "its betta for someone to Love You den u Love someone". But if i have e choice, i'll cut away this lil Queue that are Queuing. But this is very simple, just need a 'Right one' to cut. as simple as a paper. LaLaLaLa~! :D *But wait a min, do not think too much cos this is a randomness Post i eva posted.

ECP

2008-11-07T16:14:00.008+08:00

Hmms. OhOh~! i didnt realise it, it has been 1mth since my blog have not been updated le. HAPPY 1mth anniversity to my dead blog. -.- issit kinda a Breakthru? if u have been to my blog, u'll know why i'll say its a breakthru. -.- ahahah. and so sorry! i've been reminded by most of u that this blog of mine has been dead. BUT its ALIVE now. but wont be blogging so often. cos i doesnt have e motivation to update. x: so yea, during e past 1mth, things happen everyday. there's sth interesting, there's sth which will lead me to -.-, there's sth that make me feel irritated and there's sth that make me wanna C-O-L and there's sth that make me wanna leave in Slient mode. so yea man~! and of cos, ytd had a great day! went ECP to cele Dar's Birdae. went cycle and everything. so yea, enjoy e day w em thou im tired. so let e pic do e talking. *For more photos, please go to my FACEBOOK. (:

*e skies are beautiful. how i wish i got e wings to fly to Heaven right now. just wanna hide in e dark where no one could find. everything is gonna be done in slient mode. FYI, im not emo. just ramdonly. hahahaha.

cute lil kids

2008-10-07T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hmms. woah~! Celeste, ME! is super happy today. Guess what. oh no. so cute can. today got one 'ah moh' lil gal came into my shop and she was playing w her korkor and jiejie running ard, so they was super cute. like kind of fighting w each other of a chair. so e lil gal wanna sit on e chair and suddenly her shoe drop, so she came towards me and give me e shoe and i was like 'hmmm?' den she sit down on e floor and ohoh, she want me to help her wear shoe. so i help her and she ran to her mummy and tell her mummy, 'i like her'. den she ran towards me again and guess what 'SHE HUG ME!' ARG~! so i carry her up walking ard e shop. man~! she was so super cute can. and she's skinny. and she's super pretty! when she growed up, she must be a PRETTY GAL! and she didnt HUG me once, but quite a few times. and still have, e other day also, a lil boyboy run towards me wanna hold me hands x: all i can say is nowsaday lil kids are super cute, just wanna bring em home x: They brighten up my days. (:

Hmms. and. today on my way home. someone snatch my bag. i shocked! but guess who? its HENG SOON PENG! scared me. and on e way home he is disturbing me so i got no choice gonna hang my call, and he said, 'eheh. quick call mama and say quick open e door, someone is following me' so i called and ya. so he tell me to run home and say someone followed me home, quick open door! and my bro hide somewhere so mama really believe, 1st she don believe and she say its my bro den i say NONO, someone very scary one. -.- and i was like my acting good ar. haha. and i was like trying to ctrl my laugh. -.- end up, woah~ manage to trick my mama tgt w my bro. x: but its not my idea btw. but i cant imaging if someone really followed me. -.- they should come and "Banned" ABNN at my house downstair. everynight go home w fear.

*no one knows what is happening behind everyone. do u know? nope, no one knows. just wanna MIA from some people who i wanna MIA. don wanna be close to em or rather advoid as i could. everything will be done in a slient mode. do not blame me if this is e decision.

no one knows.

2008-10-06T23:14:00.002+08:00

Hmms. its alrights if no one knows..

few things.

2008-10-06T20:24:00.003+08:00

*Few things i wanna do if i got 10millions dollars.

~Gives my Tithe and upcoming 6 mths of BF.

~Get all e things in my wishlists (esp IPOD TOUCH).

~Bless my Dad a House.

~Bless my every single family to hols esp my ah ma.

~Bless ppl ard me e things that they need(who wants?).

~Donate some to e needy.

~Doesnt need to work.

~Doesnt need to have 1 meal/day

and finally.

~Leave this Place and NEVER be back.

~Travel ard e world to Japan, Hawaii, Spain etc.

~Study aboard.

Hmms. but e truth is always e truth. i just don have e 10millions. c'mon! e fact is e fact. and Money doesnt counts anything. its doesnt counts LOVEs, CAREs, CONCERNs. so what if have those money, am i really happy? perharps Yeap.. so i could be able to Leave this place in a Slient mode. and go to a place where i can totally forget about this place of everything. im really wondering if i really have that 10millions. and u'll see CELESTE HENG KIM HONG disappear in a slient mode. u'll see her no more, maybe Yes, a few years later? and also she will ask someone to go tgt w her so she doesnt need to go alone. or maybe u can hide me in ur lauggage(whoever gg for a hols), i'll sure LOVEsss You to bits. (:

*P.S: i haven go my Beach yet. ): i haven shout all e feelings that i got. i haven cry all out yet. i haven say what i wanna say yet. ohoh, where's my HERO? Jesus is one of em and another one? come and save me. be my "fan" and help me to blow away all that is coming towards me. alrights, its does not liink.

Ah ma.

2008-10-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

My Lovelys Ah Ma <3

Hmms. woah~! This is my Ah Ma. Loves my Ah Ma to bits. seriously, i thank God for her. i dono how to tell u how much i love her or she love me. so in short is 'i thank God for her'. but i feel that im "bullying" her. everytime when i go her house, she'll ask me want to eat mah, den she'll go down to pack for me or even cook for me specially and let me bring to work. and haha she think im a "pig" cos she pack so much till i can have lunch and dinner tgt. and she know what i want to eat. when i said i wanna eat this or that she'll specially cook for me alone. x: but she's skinny. -.- and im taller den her. (: but she is very cute, cos where ever my lil cousin beat me, i'll tell her and she will somehow say my lil cousin. den i was like. hahaha, u get scolded. x: and yea lor. in short is "Thank God for e lil blessing that He have place in my life." and Thanks Ah ma for every lil blessing that u've bless me everytime i go and find u. (:

*I LOVE MY AH MA! <3

2nd birdae present.

2008-09-30T12:27:00.003+08:00

Hmms. ARG~! saw that? someone come and find me during work ytd and pass me THIS! i was like 'what, serious mah?' haha. but seriously, that brighten up my day thou my day gonna end soon, that is e highlight of e day~! FYI, if u dono what thats, let me tell u, actually i dono what that too x: i only know e head will shake, and when i ask HKitty a question like "is Kim short?" she shake 'NO', mean im not short. so happy, 1st time someone say im not short ehh. but really Thanks a millions to YOU! Thanks for e '2nd Birdae Present' that u gave! ARG~! *I LOVE YOU to bits! <3

*Ytd, dreamt of sth and it goes like this: "meimei, PaPa has brought sth for us. come and take. and its was a 'small cake'. and when i eat it, woah~ so sweet so nice. a beautiful cake i ever had thou its not my birdae or anything but my one and only cake i ever receive from him." and sud 'Hallelujah... i'll Bless e Lord will all my Soul.....' ARG~! Alram in my HP, irritating, there spoilt my dreams. i was sad but yet, happy. wondering will that be real? tell me its not a dreams please. tell me its real. i hope it real.

wake me up

2008-09-30T01:09:00.003+08:00

Hmms...

Can someone wake me up when '31 Sep' has ended?

feelings

2008-09-27T00:49:00.007+08:00

FEELINGS:

Hmms. What is "Feelings"? no one will ever know how another person Feel? Yes, i'll be able to feel u physically by touching e hands. but there's another "Feelings" which no one will ever know. 'Heart'. Don tell me u know how i feel when u doesnt even go thru it. or rather u didnt even hear what i wanna say. and another "Feelings" which is 'Falling in Love' w e person u Like. somehow u got e "feelings" of that person. There're so many "Feelings". But to me, "Feelings" are just like Growing in e Dark. no one will ever know how u feel only when e light is off, e light of e Feelings is out. Be it, sadness, discouragement, disppointment etc, it'll be seen after e light is off. but i wanna to know one thing, i really wanna ask 'DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL?' Yes, who doesnt want increase? Yes, who doesnt want Breakthru? Yes, who doesnt want to be w their Loves one? Yes, who doesnt want to get attached? Yes, who doesnt want to have a JOYFUL life? But 'DO U KNOW?'. and all i know is, This Heart of mine has grow 'Cold, Hard, Breaks'. scold disciple angry nag or anything u want cos i gonna pretend nth has happen. im sorry for not being a good ones. im sorry for doing a lousy job. im sorry for e growth. im sorry that im not a Blessing to u. im sorry that i let u down. im sorry u gonna do everything by urself. im sorry....

*i just wanna walk away silently. no returns. a mixture of feelings. FYI: 'u' doesnt referring to one person only neither do e things i said doesnt referring to one thing only. PS: pls believe me again that im really alrights. and of cos im HAPPY! Yes, i am.

no updates

2008-09-27T00:24:00.005+08:00

Hmms. Few Reasons why Blog are not updated:

~Got e Disease of 'Laziness' from some of em.

~Busy and yet not Busy at e same time.

~Time is running.

~Tired after one whole day.

~As it's a Negative Post. so doesnt wan ppl to questioned.

~So everyone will think Kim is "ALRIGHTS".

~Did Blog but its in my 'secret' blog.

*P.S: Pls Believe im alrights. yes, i am.

Beach

2008-09-21T23:39:00.004+08:00

Hmms. BEACH~!
is e place where i hunting to go right now.
is a place where its so "Romantic" for couples.
is a place where it is so beautiful w it beautiful skies.
is a place where i can only hear e sea and wind sound.
is a place where i can SHOUT all my Troubles, Stress and Sadness.
is a place where i can let e sea take away all my "T.S.S"
will it be helpful?
never try it before.
so Yea, im gg on WED.
Beach, Here i come!
BUT He~llo! FYI, im not gg w a GUY.
but of cos, im straight. -.-

Smile. (:

2008-09-16T14:10:00.004+08:00

Hmms. ARG~! They've never never fail me to smile. (: Look at how cute they are. arent they cute? this everyone cant deny de. Yea? feel so comfortable when i hug em. sometime will just bomb to my bed and hug em when im tired and woah~! Loves em for what they are. and they got e tears of mine. they bath thru my tears?? sound funny but its alrights. they know my every secret. wanna know my secret mah. find em, and they'll tell u. wahahaha! and so sad, my bed is too 'big' for all of em to sleep. so e 2 bigs one gonna sleep on e chair. ): but of cos when i wake up den they sleep on my bed. so im trying not to receive anymore le if not i really gonna sleep at e floor. :x but i still LOVES em. one thing about em, THEY ARE CUTE! and they make me smile. (:
Hmms. and Yea!! another one. that is none other den my SPORE FLYER. Its never fail me to smile wheneva i saw. sometime after work was tired but pass by it, and woah~! smile came out. somehow someday, i wish i'll be able to be up there w my LOVES one. so Yea, this is e Power of my BAOBEIs and SPORE FLYER that make me smile. (: and of cos, e 'Love of my Daddy God' make me smile. e smile of u make me smile. e concern of u make me smile. (:

so frens, *what are e things that make u smile, think of it and sadness will gone.*

small.

2008-09-13T02:01:00.006+08:00

Hmms. was at my ah ma house that day and randomly saw sth. quite funny. look at it, haha. can laugh till like no one business. and my lil cousin was like saying, 'u lai de meh?' and my ah ma was saying, 'last time u and ah peng so CUTE de'. and i was like. yea lor. so cute can. look at my bro face. man~! e blur look. haha. and compare to last time, Grown up. and he's FAT :x we've seriously grow up from e kids to a sort of adult obviously. haha! =D so yea, show u some of e fotos. laughing all e way of his blur look. =D

and Yea. Thats my Bro and of cos ME! (: alot of diff yea?

and Yea, Finally. its Me, Myself and I! looking at e changes, physically. from a kids to a gal now. times has really change. fast fast. 18th years le. thinking and looking back, happy and sad. sad are gone foreva. what am i looking forward is e thing that im gg thru right now. asin e thing that im doing right now. looking forward to certain breakthrus. and e thing ard me. looking at e smile of me from e past, it make me smile. and of cos no one will capture their sadness as their memories cos it will somehow bring back their sadness. and yea. i do not know what will happen tmr but just live as i could. be a gal that is really Cheerful in e outside and of cos inside and will bring Joy to e ppl ard her. that all i wish for.

a letter to him.

2008-09-12T12:22:00.007+08:00

A Cold Morning and A Lovely Morning.

A Letter to him:

I Miss You! thou i saw u just a few days ago but im alrdy start missing u le. how i wish u are here now to piggyback me down e hill, bring me to KFC to buy wages, buy ur fav durians, bring me ard e world. i miss those days. really. e moment i woke up, e image of ur face is flashing in my mind. e smile of u, e always snatching ur head de u, and e becoming fat de u. u kept telling me 'im fat alrdy hor'. Yes, u are but to me u're always u. But i thank God that u're fine. there's a place where u can truthly stay. know u got no choice in doing e things and its boring but u must JIAYOU. 4years more. i wonder when is e next time i'll be seeing u. 1 year later, 2 years later or even 4 years later? my tears break e moment i saw u but i hold it back, i wanna tell u alot of things but i doesnt want u to worried. its only when i left u, tears couldnt stop even when there're stranger ard me in e bus. whocaniturnto? turn to left and right but no one. all alone in a Lost world. and Daddy God i pray that You will sent e Angels to surround him and Protect him. Pls take cares and most of all, i wanna say

'I LOVE YOU'. <3

*Who will I run to

Who will I turn to

Now that you left me behind

Who will dry my tears

When I cry

Who will I run to

Who will I turn to

Now that you’re not here

In my life

Who will be there for me

Who’s gonna rescue me

Who’s gonna share my dreams

Who’s gonna mend this broken heart

hols.

2008-09-11T23:16:00.004+08:00

Hmms. ARG~~~!!!!! =D i shout not cos of anything. cos finally, im a 'Free-Bird' le. can fly alrdy, got wings but its fake wings. cos exam finally finish. stress stress go away don eva come again. e 1st term has gone, but sad to say. there're still 2nd, 3rd and 4th. =.= and even more stressed. i believe cos got dono what marketing, entreprenuer and blahblah. still got 3 more terms to struggle w. but its alrights. i'll be able to pull thru de!

Hmms. anw. yea. as i mentioned, i've just finish my papers. 2 stressed papers. MON had my BFD and really can fainted when i study that. loads of theory and i dislike it. memorising hasnt been good in my mind cos i got CeLeste's STM. :x so im sorry if i forget who u are. haha. no ar. kidding. but quite sad cos think lose quite a num of marks but its alright, no As, Bs also can. (: den TUES is my AFD and yea. actually was quite happy, cos i 'tot' i found e ans of BANK REC but in e end, cheat my feeling. come out of e exam hall and i realise arg~~~! and its so craps, act clever de me cos i changed e whole num upside down. and FYI, e ans should be tally if not tally means wrong. so ya. arg~! quite sad. but nvm. (: pass alrdy, fly away le. no longer AFD or BFD de. YES~! =D

Hmms. and yea lor. im proud of myself today cos i ate one meal only. ate Foldover, just in case u dono what's that, its from mac. and from 12 plus ate till now. not really hungry and my colleague say im not 'human'. but im really not hungry. and thank God cos can save my money also. but back home, ate 'malay carrot cake'. =.= got prawn. vomit. sensitive to seafood thats why. and no mood to eat also. and also, thank God for protection also. nearly fall from a super tall ladder and thank God also cos no one knows, slient mode again. and ya, if not now im in dono where le ar. i really cant imaging what if really really ar. cannot cannot, don imaging betta.

Hmms. and yea. another thing that cheat my feeling, that is my Creative. i mean e person who sell it to me. arG~! say got wireless but end up my 8GB doesnt have, only available in 16GB/24GB i think. but its alrights, i also don use wireless so often so don laugh. u know who u are. and tell u, i still prefer my Creative. mine is still e best, ur IPOD TOUCH are nth le. :x so don try to tempt me w ur IPOD TOUCH. :x somehow someday i'll still get my IPOD TOUCH de. (:

and I MISS JOANNE LIM JIA HUAN!!!!! miss gg BS w her, miss having our dinner and supper tgt. that day is e day where we had our Last dinner and supper. don worries, 5mths will pass real fast de. and ya, i'll go get a webcam and headset w mirc ASAP. of cos, so cute, just talk to her thru MSN or skype, and i was like a mute person and she's e one who kept talking and i typed! so funny and cute can. and seriously, i miss her badly. thou knew her not really that long but i really thank God for her. and just wanna tell u that, "JIAYOU and will keep u in prayers de. and im so excited to get a webcam and talk to u over msn. u must JIAYOU and update ur blog often ok. and last but not e least, I MISS YOU and I LOVE YOU too!! (:"

Hmms. and yea. now im in e midst of hols. catch me if u can! till 12oct! 1 mth plus. but sad to say gonna work. but nono. cannot everyday work, will KO de. so will make time de. but haha. happy to say, im quite pack or rather full during my hols cos i see my calendar den no blank de, got blank but a few days only. haha. so catch me if u can. =D

*Joy covers ALL.

darkness.

2008-09-10T22:09:00.005+08:00

Today is e day.
Lost in e Darkness.
a place where i never been and was afraid
but there was no one beside me.
The Dark have become even Darker den eva.
i couldnt even see a thing.
Am lost and wasnt afraid afterall cos
loneliness is a small lil things to me at that moment.
who will i turn to?
but e moment i tot of seeing u
excitement but yet afraid.
and when i see ur smile, i hold my tears.
its only when i left u, i could just tears.
there're alot of things that i wanna tell u
but e moment i saw u, Joy but yet Break.
and times passes fast.
could u just bring me away this lonely place.
im tempted to make that silly decision
BUT u're e one who i worried of.
who will take cares of u if i left.
e image of u are in my mind
always and always.

BRB

2008-09-04T19:51:00.004+08:00

*BRB*

Yea. will be back after my papers.

don worries. im alrights. (:

Guard my Heart. Guard my mind.

awww~~!

I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthen me!!

AFD and BFD craps.

2008-09-02T23:01:00.003+08:00

man~! i need WISDOM and STRENGTH from God!!!! stressful, struggling thru my revision. did i revise? yea, like real! can i fight this battle which im fighting thru right now? my brain has totally STOP. i really do not know how to move on. next wk is exam le. will i score 'As'. ha! if i score a 'Bs', im laughing away alrdy. arg~! AFD & BFD is totally craps. now all i feel like doing is to run away.

MIA in blogging.

2008-09-02T13:29:00.006+08:00

Hmms. He~llo! alrights. before i really start to MIA. nono. relac. not really MIA in person but MIA in here. Man~! i must really start my revision NOW. NOW IS E TIME! cannot cannot. cannot liddat de. NOW means NOW. anw, i planning to start today cos if i start earlier, i'll sure forget everything so haha. clever me. but i really really pray and fast for my exam next wk. i wanna get 'As'! i dono how i gonna get it or do it but i really gonna work hard study hard. thou there're only 2 modules but e 2 modules are a KILLER. :x

and man~! i really wanna COL le. cannot LOL le. Bill come le. and woah~ $100! tell me how? of cos im alrdy heart-prepare le. so yea. prepare to get nag. prepare to scarifice. prepare to work more ar. hor? arg~! and yea. always w/o fail, im kept telling myself, 'THIS IS SCARIFICES'. and this is e sentnece which keep me move on. (:

Hmms. and yea. im here to annouce that 'NO MORE IPOD TOUCH for CELESTE!' ): i brought a 'Creative Zen X-Fi' for myself. on e other side, i wanna cry cos money gone but on e another side, thats my 'Belated birdae present' for myself. (: but i don mind if u wanna bless me w e IPOD TOUCH ar. (: arg~! was wondering whether did i make a wrong decision of buying that. pls tell me no, i didnt. but anw, i've alrdy brought it le so no use to go think of it. *Major on e minor, Minor on e major! there're betta thing for me to think ar. so yea lor. and hor. haha. my Zen X-Fi has become my Precious right now, i'll take care of it gently. and e person told me can go MSN but i still trying to firgure out how? if u happen to have e same Zen X-Fi as me, pls tell me how. thanks so much!

Hmms. woah~! its 2 Sep le. its like so fast can. AUGUST passed away alrdy. den now sep den oct den X'mas. den CNY take ang bao. =D den 2009. days passes so fast that i don even know im 18th. but yea lor. days passes days. i don even know how e rest of e days are gg to happen but i know it gonna be a GOOD one cos He planned everything for me. (:

In life, sure have disappointment, discourage, sadness, stressfulness etc. but life gonna go on. Yea, there're times where ppl might hurt u but e funny thing is they didnt realise it. and im super disappointed. what to do? and was scrolling down my contact. nah.. no one i can really call and talk to. as in, have ar, if talk craps, chit-chatting have alot. but come to a serious point whereby u're so down and u need someone to talk to that kind. but most impt is e person understand how u feel lor but funny thing is i realise everyone will say 'i understand how u feel' BUT does they really know it? and how i wish, "DADDY GOD" is in my contact. and someone said 'dial 777' to get thru Heaven. BUT cheat my feeling. =.= cos i tried but it said 'number not in use'. but still, e best place is still in Heaven. where no one can hurt u, where u can find Peace and Love in there. how i wish im there right now. but saddening, im here on earth. But Praise e Lord too. cos i know what im on earth for.

Hmms. and so yea bah. gonna stop here le. and do what i need to do le. (: haha. i pray i will ar. whaahah. no say but pls do it! (: pls motivate me by buying me a cup of CCC. (: i'll blog if i want to or rather im free. but i'll still reply all ur taggies. <3>

*i give all my Hurts to You.

nah... no one...

2008-09-02T11:11:00.003+08:00

nah.. no one....

scroll and scroll but not even one.

not even You, she, he, her or him.

wall isnt a person.

how i wish 'DADDY GOD' is in it.

so i could call Him.

Heaven is use e best of all.

Sakae-ing.

2008-08-28T21:53:00.008+08:00

Hmms. woah~! man x3~! after so long. Finally. i can say im back. Yea, im back. wahaha. anw. changed my skin le. so obvious. (: wahaha. finally after dono how many millions years ar, since e day i started blogging which is dono how many years back ar stuck at e lil sweet gal skin till now. HoHoHo~! so Happy~! and yea. i LOVEs this skin right now. and not sure when will i change my skin again. 100 years later..? skin is a never easy thing to change. i dono about u but for me personally YES is super never easy. =D but after so long. i MADE IT to chn my skin. =D wahaha!

Hmms. and YeaYea! Guess what. i feed my soul today. *Today Today is all or Nothing, all e way Praise go out to You! Yea all e Praise go out to You! YEA! finally after sooo long which is millions years back, finally went sakae-ing w Angie and Sheena. think my last sakae is March ar? arg~! feel so happy can. yummy yummy~! But was FULL less den 1 hr time. =.= and really CMI alrdy so decided to go out for a 'walk', den soon pian go watson to get what i need. and so headed to watson and e sales person talk to me and he super random. he asked "Gal, how old are you?" and i give him a werid look den tell him '18?' den he give me another shock look and "HUH? don bluff me la, i tot u 15 only leh". and i respond a super fake 'haha, no leh'. den soon and sooner another stuff came and he ask him "guess how old is 'my fren'?" and 1st thing is He~llo. im not ur fren, i dono u de. and nvm, i din bother to talk to him but he kept talking to me and was kinda irritated but no choice cant find my thing and really no choice so ask him. after getting my stuff, go cashies imm. den leaving in progress, he say 'BYE!' and i give a Fake "BYE".

Hmms. den after sakae-ing. went to walk walk and yea yea. finally brought what i wanna buy a few wk ago. and yea. haha. Thanks to Angie and Sheena too for e times. enjoy w u gals. Opps. But we got caught by 2 of our classmate while walking. cos me and angie pon BFD. so sheena e 'guai' gal went but she got no choice cos she got OFA but we doesnt have. so instead of waiting for 3 hrs in break for BFD so we decided to go home after AFD from 8-10am. and meet for sakae instead. so yea. pon x3~! man~! must break away e Spirit of pon-taning. but aiyo. nvm ar. cos e terms are ending soon and exam are just a few days more. and man~! what am i doing? i haven start revising. =D alrights, so i shall be a "guai" gal to study next wk as i wont be working e whole wk. but its impossible for CELESTE to stay at home for e whole wk de. (: and yea! i got 5 days hols. no lesson for 5 days. =D

Hmms. oh no~! nowsaday, don u guyz feel that its super "HOT". hot until i need to wear my sweater at home. don think im e one who got prob ar hor? cos everyone was like saying 'cold meh?' but really very cold leh. maybe they got prob ar hor. haha~! but trust me, its cold. and i dono i got what body also. feel weak sometime. and body hothot de. but no fever only got headache. can anyone tell me what's inside my body? ahdui~! but nvm ar. buy me one CCC and i'll charge up again. (: Nono. bring me to His Presence, and i'll cfm chop chop charge up de. Hmms. alrights ar. shall stop here. will be back to blog again. (:

*He light up this smile of mine.

W469 CGCs Dinner. (:

2008-08-27T23:10:00.007+08:00

Hmms. woah~! Ytd finally after our awaiting dinner. finally and finally we had our 1st CGCs dinner tgt. so yea. super HAPPY. haha! dono why. i saw e fotos, im laughing non-stop. Yea, non-stop. i dono why. don ask me, ask my "soul" bah. but eheh, its fill my soul. and yea. went NYCD ar have dinner den haha. e name that they name is super funny. don ask me why funny ask e menu. (: den headed to 'money changer' cos Ronald wanna chn money but end up, sad. closed. so we headed to starbuck.

Hmms. woah~ starbucking. as usual CCC. my CCC. Ronald drank CCC also. =D den double Cheryl drink ice mocha i think so chim till i dono what's that. =D den JJ drank Mango passion Fruits. =D woah~! seesee. starbucking is e best of e max. i couldnt count how many cups i have drank in AUG le. :x and yea. we talk, he~llo! of cos we talk. but really thank You e 3 of u for listening. haha. finally. i bomb some out le. of cos still got others but haha. but i just ask one question and opps. :x u guyz are good at digging out secret. =D and yea. lets have more dinner. i believe every dinner is great! Thank You, Lovelys. (: and yea. Finally. one foto of 4 of us. and CELESTE is e Brave gal of e day. cos she ask e starbuck person to take for them. andand woah~! i realise sth. *Ronald finally take a Proper foto. (: aiyo. nvm de. he wont see my blog de so its alrights to say. =D CELESTE is looking forward to e upcoming dinner. (:

Dearest JIAHUI!

2008-08-27T22:52:00.003+08:00

Hmms. First of all. im super ultar HAPPY to met up w my Dearest Beloved JIAHUI! woah~! JoyJoy for e day. i mean on sun. (: Finally after dono how many millions years, met up w her le. went to cele her SUPER ADVANCE BIRDAE. haha. Yea, its super advance. ButBut, sad. she seem to know le cos we're quite obvious. but hor. Jiahui ar. sometime its good to act blur also ar. haha! =D and yea lor.

*Dearest JiaHui, Thank You for everything u've done. Thank You for bringing me to Daddy God. Thank You for always there w/o fail. Thank God for this sweet lil blessing that He've given me. Thank You for this all years, 6 years le. Times passes and i know it'll still cont. and i really apprecaited everything u've done in my life. bringing me to W220. its really a great big JOY. alot things is begin unsaid but just wanna tell u that "I LOVE YOU, JIAHUI". <3

12AUG (Part 3)

2008-08-27T17:18:00.007+08:00

Hmms. HoHoHo~! haha! finally, my long awaiting fotos are here but not all. ): still in e midst of waiting for Serene to sent me e fotos that we took. seesee! e cake is super yummy and tell u all one secret. its super hard to cut e cake. =.= ButBut, woah~ i got alot to say. haha. i still in my mood of my birthdaying. still got more to updates but e post doesnt wan me to blog. lack of space to upload of foto. but sad sad. didnt take a grp foto cos gonna chaos to meet others. busy busy day on that day. but anw. YeaYea. waitwait. relac. this is just Part 3. haha! haven come to e end yet so yea lor. cool down. chill chill 1st. (: alrights alrights. got BS in a few hrs times. so when im back home den i updates again, alrights? (:

arg~!

2008-08-27T10:10:00.006+08:00

*God, show me e right one.

e shoulder that i need.

and not all e wrong butterfiles.

its good to act blur sometime. (:

arg~!

Anw. HAPPY 1st Belated BIRDAE to my Dearest CELESTE HENG KIM HONG. which is me, myself and I. (: HoHoHo! 26 Aug! 1 year have pass. and woah~ so happy. JoyJoy! alot of words to say but time is pushing away. so will updates real soon. Yea, its real soon. i promise. cos i have alot of things to say. (:

sweetest 18th

2008-08-15T13:42:00.004+08:00

Hmms. ohoh~! YES! im obviously 18. and i look like one i know. thank u. (: ahdui~! CMI, tues while i was taking cab down from Marina to JW den =.= e taxi driver super shock and turn back and look at me and 'HUH? u don bluff me leh'. cos he ask me what sec sch and i said "Simei ITE" and den i told him im 18 for today. and i was thinking in my heart, He~llo! look infront, cos u're driving. :x haha! Opps. :x so kinda of chit chatting w e uncle, think he very bored ar, so he entertain me. =D and i was like, CMI can. he said i sec 1 and He~llo! e age from sec 1 is 13yrs old and im 18yrs old. 5 yrs diff. very BIG diff. but its alrights. uncle was good, cos suppose to be $30 plus plus den e uncle take $30 from me only and he bless me w e rest and said. 'nvm, its alrights, treat it as my birdae treat to u.' i was like woah~ Thank God man! but my heart break when i 1st time took a $30 cab. nearly wanna cry but sot ar if i really cry. but thats all is scarifice! in e end i manage to kinda reach on time to meet e rest of e CGCs. and so sad. they bully me. :x sad ar. and before that im bullied by my gals that i rushing to meet my "BF" den say i PS them. go every where also being suan just by a 'sunflower and rushing off by cab'. ): ahdui~! but its alrights. enjoy that day thou. still wanna say THANK YOU!

Had a Sweetest, Enjoyable, Funner, Surprised 18th!

Hmms. arg~! gg out later. (: woah~ so tired now. this wk slept super less hrs. this wk is so pack. can really come to a point where ytd suspose to have lesson at 8am but head is giving me trouble so CMI den slept and wake up got fever but betta le. and i slept for 13hrs ytd! recover all my sleep but still not enough. catching back all my sleep. (:

Hmms. woah~ alrights ar. so yea. e moral of e story is "CELESTE HENG KIM HONG" is a Happiest Gal. Yea? i never had so fun before or rather after my 17th of emoing, i never been smiling all day long. and i really Pray that i'll not fall again. not again. alrights ar, my "birdae" has not over yet. still in e midst of receiving present and Belated Birdae cele. and yea. really thank God for everything. orh yea! ideal age is "21-25". alrights, super random i know. and nowsaday im super random and my frens ard me also super random. dono why. but its alrights! 21-25!! where's mine? (:

12AUG (Part 2

2008-08-13T23:35:00.005+08:00

Hmms. woah~ Here comes my Part 2. (: First of all. i wanna thanks once again those who have wished me. all ur smses really make me smile. serious. i see it again and again. and i feel so joyful. so blessed by all of u. a simple msg do wonders. seriously. and i don deny that this year my 18th birdae i really enjoy loads. i couldnt tell u how enjoy how bless im but all Glory to my Daddy God! Thank You Daddy for this great and awesome and special day.

Hmms. and woah~ i really had a enjoyable and fullfill day on my 18th. and of cos a 'SURPRISE'. wanna thank all e Pretties gals who cele my birdae in Pizza Hut w that Surprise. im totally shock that wow. and im super ultar PAISAE when e light is off and e HappyBirdae song is out and everyone is singing HAPPYBIRDAE to me. and i was like, arg~! they're super cute. and i really thank God for them cos some of them i don really know and just know them a few times only and they're e one who help me cele my 18th. they asked me out! im really Bless by them. and wow. they brought swenson de chocolate ice cream cake for me. (: Yummy. thou is not my mango but its nice. and of cos they gave me a "SK Cross Necklance". woah~ im touch to e bits! and im really sorry to left them after they help me cele w e surprise. im really touch by them. and e SunFlower meant ALOT to me. (:

Hmms. and yea. this wk was like woah~ packed w things. on 12aug, its like fully pack. met up w them and someone, den i went to leaders mtg. its was awesome! and today, didnt went home last night as it was too late for me from jurong all e way to bdk le. so abit scare plus im gonna KO le. so decide to go Yuping's house and stay. and morn went for Morning PM den went to eat Mac Breakfast and home. din manage to catch a sleep as i don have time den headed to sch. =.= den meet Germaine and Yuping for dinner den BS den went to meet Joanne. den overall. its so FUN and tired w JOY! (: but days passed so fast that i wanna more of it hours.

Hmms. and yea. and gonna thanks some of u for e CUTE present. Loves it loads. haha. and i tot my 18th, no one will gave me any HELLOKITTY stuff le but surprisely there is. woah~ anw Thanks someone for e Pretty SUNFLOWER. Thanks Jessica for e HELLOKITTY specially fly from Japan de. Thanks U.R.S gals for e SK Cross Necklance. Thanks CG for e BodyShop. Thanks Edmund for e present. Thanks Fren for e Crumpler. Thanks Double C for e Precious Moment. Thanks ANGIE for e Precious Moment de mug(im surprise by You, thanks so much!). Thanks Joanne for e super ultar CUTE HELLOKITTY Watch. Thanks Jaslyn for e HELLOKITTY's towel+Pen+Pen cum Pencil. Thanks to those who present i have not receive yet which is on e way. and thanks Aunties for e ANGBAO money. (:

Hmms. and yea. of cos, there're fotos. but haha. e foto are still in their hands. when i got it from them i update it again. but let me post some of my present 1st. its really cute. but sorry that my cam is so good till e pic is so "clear".

12AUG (Part 1)

2008-08-12T13:18:00.002+08:00

Woah~ Finally. offically, im 18th le. im waiting for this day since im a baby. =.= but anw. haha. stop crapping. (: let me have a short and sweet post before i prepare to go out. First of all

HAPPY BIRDAE TO ME, MYSELF and I!

HAPPY BIRDAE TO HUIMIN JIE!

HAPPY BIRDAE TO ADDY!

and HAPPY BIRDAE TO THOSE WHOSE BIRDAE FALL ON 12AUG!

indeed 12AUG is a great and awesome day. a day where is getting Bless here and there. and really thanks to those who had smsed me. seriously. i apprecatied it super loads. e sms that i received, it brighten up my smile. my inbox is flooded w u guyz de lovelys msg. and it really meant alot to me cos just now on my way home, when i look at e msg again, i smiled! and i really thank God for all e lovelys ppl ard me. a lil sms will make someone smile. at e same time, tears w JOY! and thanks for e presents. seriously, i haven opened up all e present yet. and yea. thats all i gonna say now. this is just Part 1 of e day! will blog again Part 2. once again, thanks! I LOVE YOU!

EMO!

2008-08-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

Hmms. arg~! Quick post before it turning to 12am! before e clock turn into 12am sharp. i don wanna to be emo for just on 12AUG! i'll kill myself if im. don spoilt my own mood. arg~! im here to bomb everything OUT! i couldnt take it anymore. no more!! all i wan is to LEAVE. i dislike every single night. i hate nights time e most. YES, e most! is that really e real person. tap and tap tears flowing out. and im returning back to e old kim. and i hate it! do u think i like? oh man, no one will ever like it. and i regret of asking, i regret of telling, i regret of saying. but i don intend to tell anyone. why don i just walk away in slient mood. w/o anyone knowing. and totally gone, disappear. forever disappear. i cant find back kim. how to move on, how to cont to go on w a life liddat? i hate kim. out of e sudden, i cant find anyone who i can turn to. scroll down and down my contact from 'A-Z', no one, just no one who i can press a 'dial'. but e one who is not in my contact came into my mind but how to go and find him? HOW? but im sorry to him if thats was really my 1st and last visit. and i doesnt know do i make anyone sad by doing e wrong decision im planning to do?

fun sentosa

2008-08-09T23:58:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah~ Finally. im back to e world. ehh, repharse, back to my com. are u wondering where i go? i went to a place where its so HEAVENLY! =D trapped w/o serving e net for 1 wk. but kinda use to it. but only super pek chek only. cant use msn and blahblah. all thanks to someone. blame me somemore but nvm its alrights. now everything has back and new boardbrand has come and now i don need to click connect myself. auto de. mean wireless de lor. *fainted. after dono how many years, finally i can back to online le. things happen during this few days.

Hmms. but anw. went to Sentosa today. kinda sad cos like 5 ppl went BUT its still fun, imaging spenting whole day playing VBALL!! and also thank God for Joanne plus her some cgm came after that. haha. and seriously. i don like it after everything end cos my face will have alot of brushes. and yes. i put on brushes de. trust me and i know u will. ahdui~! e brushes super pain and red. don ever buy that brushes again. =.= and my hands also got brushes le. cos e brushes know how to run. now my body is just too hot till can cook a egg. and my best bro, saw my red face den still go and touch and turn my head. pain ar he know. but after a long day. its was fun afterall. enjoy e day and playing vball! andand. of cos. Happy Singapore Day! and another day have pass. so fast so soon. i wonder those go NDP de is really go cele spore birdae or go there watch show.

Hmms. arg~! its AUG! and HAPPY BIRDAE, PAPA! its 12AM. i wonder do u rmb ur birdae? i wonder will u be able to receive my wishes for u. i wonder what will u be doing? and of cos 3 more day! ehhehh. nono. 2 more day. cos 12:20AM le. (: alrights alrights. anything. should i be excited about it? Yes/no? im not sure. and im not care. :x can i just pause that day. and forever 18th. 18th ok, proud of myself. can do alot of things. but do i have 19th, 20th, 21st and so on? just like what i said. we doesnt know what will happen next. just wanna to do what i wanna do and yea. but e decision i've made, no one can ever stop me. planned! leaving to a place where i need to go in e future. why make myself stay in a place where ya lor. i couldnt take it anymore. no more. everynight is a lonely night. a place where it so dark. so dark. so dark.. and i could just think, why couldnt u bring me along tgt w u. why u left me all alone here. and im sorry to say that i gonna meet u up there.

*to a place where You're w me.

FOP-Day 1

2008-08-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~! today is FOP de 1st day. (: great, cool and awesome. and got so-called 'altar call', one word-fear. and yea. 1 year have passed by just liddat. someone should know what im talking about. "don assume". ahdui~! i don even know what i've done during e past 1 year. i only rmb those memories that are good. so yea lor. andand HAHAHA! Thank God cos my bro came and lobang me back home after his work. appreciated it seriously. and woah~ i asked him to come and fetch me he really come. and reach on time somemore. really thank God for him. if not i wont be reaching my home so early. eariler den them! =D wahaha. 1st time leh. (:

Hmms. and yea. woah~ ridding on a lil meh meh on e road is so fun man! and woshhhh~ faster den all e car. and when i was in e lil meh meh den i was like laughing in my heart. wahaha, u all cant catch me. come lor, catch me if u all can. =D e feeling is like so super solid siok can! but i don like cos e helmet is super heavy. =.= and during e ride, my hair hit my face, so pain cos my bro ride super fast. and i was like woah~ scary leh. im looking forward to more ride on e lil meh meh. and sud i miss someone. :x sot me. so random.

Hmms. and yea again. really thank God for protection ar. cos i nearly fall again at work. =.= oh man! dono what happen to me also. and tell u one secret. i don feel like working le. working has not been a very good thing to do. but all cos of e money. i cant imaging if i never work. really cant. and work has been pushing me away from all my life. like my studies, go out and blahblah. arg~! now i got work, i've been neglecting my studies, my frens, my walk w God, my everything. and sud, i miss vball so much! actually i tot of joining back vball de but if i join back i think, u wont be able to see Kim le. think here and there. arg~! vball has become my most fav "sport"cos i don like sport de. and i really fall in Love in vball le. so long i never touch e ball. actually got ar, that time go sentosa that time but to me is super long. but nvm, make sure i'll play it on 9AUG! =D but haha, later i buy earoplane ticket for them ar. (:

Hmms. ahdui~! and yea lor. liddat ar. tmr will be another day and working 1st den go FOP. and now its midnight 1am le. not really tired but also quite tired. so yea lor. Peace, Encouragement, Comfort, Fear of e Lord! alrights. and yea! SIS is super small till someone can spot me. means ohoh! im not ""small"" or rather im not short. im tall. thank u this i know. aiyo. don need say de i know de. or should i say e world is so small? (: haha. and appreciate ur call. and thanks for asking me turn one round just to find u. in e end u're can say just right left infront of me. and tell u one secret if u're reading this entires. im so happy to see u when u tell me u saw me. haha. anw. yea. gonna stop here le. tmr still got work. and sians. today 1st time take bus to work no seat and im so tired. and yea nvm. yea lor. everyone can go sleep le cos e night is still young. (:

*Blessed be e name of e Lord!

Yes/No?

2008-07-31T21:22:00.003+08:00

Hmms. Sometime, Human are dono what to say Human. some doesnt realise what they said is hurting ppl ard them. after all, i can cfm or rather say that, im not gonna be so close den before. what ever they said they doesnt think thru and worst still again and again till i decided to igrone what they said. but what to do. human are liddat. so choosing a "right" frens are impt. im disappointed. really disappointed. and i wonder what e 'la' behind every sentence? does it look really good? if that e case 'la' how many times u want bah. someone knows to me 'la' is kinda a super rude word. but its alrights to 'la' w a joking way. but anw. all this, i really give up le. i've nothing to say. not much.

Hmms. Yes/No? i really dono. confuss mind. should i?

sweat and cool day

2008-07-31T00:35:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah~! HeyHey! i wont be so careless le. this is e only and last time i lost my house key or rather hanging in my door's locker. =.= can sweat lor. but anw, thank God. so far i didnt get any lecture from my mum. means my ah ma and my bro did tell her. =.=''' so yea. but im still scare that someone is hiding inside my house. i don dare to open my storeroom or look down my bed bottom. later i saw someone inside. and say 'zhai'. hmms. alrights. stop imaging.

Hmms. and anw. another great BS. awesome. Discerning Balance. woah~! loads to say but i got my reason not to blog. but soon i'll open up another blog. stay tune. don worries, its not emo blog. so mean i got 3 blog in total. 2 can view and another 1 no one can view cos its my 'emo blog'. i believe no one wanna see i emo. and i believe no one wanna hear my emo story. so yea.

Hmms. and yea. of cos really wanna thank God for this person. which i don really know her and sud i dono why we become so 'shou' till can cook an egg le. can really click well w her lor. use to be my BS-mates. but now. ahdui~! diff class. no worries. still go back tgt. (: can Jiayou! even u alone in ur cg who go for BS but still, God is w u man! beside u only. and cool. went fellowship w her after BS at BEDOK! see carefully! BEDOK leh. 1st time, got acc and go fellowship at bdk. breakthru alrdy. haha! just feel that wow. really Thank God for her. and really ar. thanks too for fellowshipping at bdk instead of tamp. and i feel much much betta after e talk. and she is super cute that she smsed me sth cute and funny. orh ya. she none other den JOANNE! *ABNN!

Hmms. and ya. man! i really gonna be right back soon! CELESTE HENG KIM HONG, go and reflect and think thru. stand firm ar, don fall and up again and again. u not tired i see alrdy also tired le cos i inside ur body. lazy bumb bumb, don be a lazy gal. Yes! i dare u not to fall. man. my weakness point. what to do? man! wonder how many times im falling. i doesnt know. can someone pls just knock me up, do whatever u can but just don beat, box, kill, punch, pinch, hit cos i scare pain. and yea. its not about anyone else. but e prob its all bcos of ME, MYSELF and I! so what are u suppose to do right now? har, CELESTE? go sleep, watch tv, msn, blogging, talking in e fone, go out ar? ur head ar, tkk! and Yes! i can imaging its near, on e way to breakthru le. and this time round, i can SEE it! make sure i can and not fall!

Hmms. alrights ar. has a long and sweat day for today. so its time to go do what im suspose to do le. don neglect Him! and its 1:14AM and i waking up on 630AM later. woah~ but seriously. i don feel like gg sch cos tmr got 3 hrs break. and i dislike thurs seriously. arg~! but what to do? if i never go, he~llo! i gonna miss out loads of things and soon it'll be my EXAM le. and my GPA isnt that good cos of my good BFD push my GPA down. so PLS everyone who are seeing this, Pray for me for my brain to open up and not close. really need alot alot of wisdom. seriously. eheh. i realise sth. i din request ppl to pray for me de leh. =.= so can i have my 1st request? thank u beri e much man! Loves u all to bits! <3 and yea. 12 more days to 12 AUG!!! woah~ but can i have my one more request? can i pause that day and stop at 18th? or can i have more den 24hrs on 12aug? can, tkk lor.

*its a Long Long Journey where You're w me.

sweat.

2008-07-30T15:19:00.003+08:00

Hmms. *sweat and fainted at e same time. woah~! so crappys! NO! why am i SO careless?? guess what? i left my keys at e door locker. and i realise it when im in lesson just nice gg to start test le. and i was like OH NO! GOD, HOW? but thanks Angie for ur encouragements. and 1st thing, call ppl for HELP. and no ones so i Prayed, called my bro so many times but din pick up. tot he can rush back w his lil lame bike but he's at sch. and later AFD still got test and i think think think and finally i made my mind to go back home. and arg~! so crappys. headache. so finally. reach home. wanna cry when i saw my keys hanging on my door's locker. i was like PRAISE E LORD! THANK GOD! but at e same time, im afraid of entering into my house cos i scare there's someone inside. and smsed my bro and told him i found it. den he called and ask, "things got lost or not. got people inside or not." i was like don scare me la. den i say no lor den he say how come u so cfm den i say cos everything is normal lor den he asked me to check his piggy bank and thank God everything is there! woah~ told my ah ma also but asked her don tell my mum if not haha, mati le. but i think my mum will know it soon. *sweat man.

The moral of e story is 'don be so careless next time'. and everything just relac and PRAYED! so Prayers really do wonders. woah~

backie.

2008-07-29T17:15:00.004+08:00

Hmms. arg~! CeLeste is not emo ar. but Kim is ~~not~~ emo. but nvm. doesnt know what to say so don say betta. but its alrights, no more 'emo' entires le cos all my 'emo' entires will not be in here le, is at another blog. so no one will be able to know what happen. i believe everyone must be happy cos don need to see my 'emo' entires le. if not very sians, if not no one dare to come in my blog. but i'll still update my blog here if there is any ar. if i never update here means hoho.

Hmms. woah~ today no lesson. NO! wait, lac. i din skip lesson ar. cos cher say don need go sch so don need lor. but still need to wake up early to go work. and work till 330pm lor. and wah. super solid tired and my whole body is pianful. super soild painful. think cos ytd NAFA den so long never execrise le plus i act clever din do steching that why ar. as usual haha, NAFA failed. think i sprain my backbone also but not sure what happen le. think i fall that time during work bah, i cant even bend. nvm, also don care. but really very pain. pain until can laugh and cry at e same time.

Hmms. and arg~! im here to say, i'll stop caring those things which are not related to me de. Kim! just wash ur hands over it! i gave up on them. don be so kpo ar. so whateva it is, just be a good gal and don go bother. i really gave up. say and say but still e old same thing happen again and again. so yea. enough of that. (: and i realise sth. human are funny human. know how to encourage others but doesnt know how to encourage themselve. and ytd, i was talking to my di. and while talking to him, i just feel like im talking to myself liddat. but di, JiaYou alrights? don be discourage! i believe in You! i hope u're feeling betta. and anything just give me a call and i will pick up for sure.

Hmms. ehhehh. what am i doing here? tot i suspose to go study and do my hw. arg~! crappys. end work early cos go home revise. but end up haha. reach home bom on my bed. but cannot cannot must do my hw le. cannot liddat de. ehh. someone can lent me e brain and hands so i don need to do my hw le mah. good idea right? and hor. wah. so crappy. cher bluff my feeling. so irritaing. ytd took H&W. and guess what! im shorter by 2cm! so crappy. back to my normal height. make me so happy that time. ahdui~!

Hmms. and yea! 2 more wks leh. which is 14 more days leh. and 2 more days to e end of JULY. so "slow". den AUG le. arg~! and aug my working hrs super less till i can cry. less hrs mean less paid. if not more paid meh. den somemore, cust always treat us eat 'bao', whatever 'bao' also have. "Chi Bao, ah moh bao, indian bao, malay bao, China bao." what bao u wan also have de, till we're FULL. ahdui~! nvm, sept work more more. (: but anw. yea lor. i miss MANGO. i miss my HELLOKITTY. i miss SUBWAY. i miss CCC at starbuck. i miss MYSELF. alrights alrights. really gonna chaos le, haven chn my shirt yet :x

*I believe You're all i need.

what if?

2008-07-25T00:21:00.003+08:00

*what if one day i really leave You?

PAPA.

2008-07-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

*every night before going to sleep. i'll look up e skies. and i miss my dad. really. i really miss him. i miss him more den everyone else. how i wish i can just hug him right now. i need him. i want him. everytime looking back, just tears. i rmb everything. he piggy-back me down e lil hill on our way back home, brought me his fav kfc wagges, bring me to here and there. but seeing him w all e suffering, its really break my heart. really. im afraid. really afraid. but one thing i thank God that if i go Heaven, i can ensure that he'll be there. but can i turn back to e past? if i can rewind back to e past and i'll just hold him tight. but now i cant. if i'll to say, i only have 12 more hrs to live, and e only person i really wanna see is him. i rmb his face and everything. and just wanna say, "PAPA, I MISS YOU and MOST OF ALL I LOVE YOU!" i regreted i din say this to him. everynight i just wish he will come and take me away from where im now.

sorry.

2008-07-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~! let me have a quick quick post before i go prepare to go sch. later got Role-play. sians half way. haha. tell u all one secret. i haven memorize my script. =.= actually have de, ytd on e way to work in e bus, i brought my script along to memorize but end up, all my forcus turn to a baby. so cute but noisy that why forcus on baby. e baby super cute, u know why? cos e baby cry and stop cry and stop. i was like, i never see baby liddat le leh. den nvm, think e baby wanna sleep den end up think his grandparents cant find baby's tutu. den e baby suck his own trumb. den finally e baby settle down, sleep.. but end up instead of memorizing my script, i open up my bible. haha! great choice yea?

Hmms. Babies are always cute. ytd one lil ah moh gal brighten up my day. i smile to her den she say hi to me. i was like. woah~ she say hi to me leh. cos all children hor they scare of 'stranger' de mah. i was like so cute man! and i realise sth. when a child is 'not shy' during a child time den when they grow up, they'll not shy. but when a child is 'shy' during child time den when they grow up, they'll very shy. i can prove it! (: But ahdui, shy shy shy. anyhow.

Hmms. and yea. thank God for all my 'CUTE CUTE frens'. haha. so cute until im laughing and smiling at e same time. *can u see it? my 'BACKSIDE' is alrights le. haha! some of my cute cute frens come and ask me how's my backside den they say 'next time don fall in slient mode'. and me myself i gonna think a while, why slient mode and i rmb e slient mode thing that is in my post and i was like =.= so cute can. im alrights anw. just that think i fall and my hand kena also cos hand pained. and don worries, Joanne! u'll see a FULLY kim today when i met u up. haha. got backside got hands got all parts of my body. wahahaha! and i don like my 'inner body'. always giving me trouble. hate it. im wondering what happen if i cut away every parts of my inner parts of body? den only left my outward parts. i cant imaging. ok, don imaging.. :x

Hmms. oh man! i feeling very bad. im sorry to e someone or rather a few of em. i just wanna avoid. but i don think avoiding is good. but pls don tell me e 3 words thou i know alrdy cos its obvious. if u said, i'll avoid u even more. but i wan to treat it as everything is normal. normal ok. frens frens, nothing more den that. but think i gonna face it, but this is my style u see. i don ever ever, yea. but im trying to chn. sorry sorry, just feel so guilty and bad about it when i rejected. don worries, if ur heart is break and Jesus will heal it!!

*Only You're e one who i can really turn to.

feeling.

2008-07-23T01:13:00.002+08:00

Arg~! i dono anyone got this kind of feeling before. ~feel like crying but there's no tears. (xiang ku you ku bu chu lai). u know u know. this kind of feeling. a kinda werid feeling. so werid till im lost in my heart. so werid till i myself doesnt know what is gg on. so werid till i doesnt feel like gg anywhere. just wanna close my eye, that all. it could be great if i can rest in Peace. every morn im afraid to wake up, wake up and its like do everything all over again. round and round. never ending. but what am i on earth for? e ans i know myself. Darkness may come, Trial seem so long. how i wish, You can just bring me straight to You, beside You. but i know it will never easy.

*You're e Light that i depend on.

Prayers works.

2008-07-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

Hmms. ahdui~! woah~ Thank God for strength! work FULL SHIFT. fainted. and today i fall. and ouch! wanna fall also dono how to fall properly ar. so irriatating. my backside super solid pain ar. can cry. and no one know i fall cos its slient mode. and i was like wow. Praise e Lord! Hit my hands, Hit my dono which part of my body also and Painful part is my backside. haha, aiyo. nvm de ar, backside everyone also have mah so its alrights to say backside. (: cant even walk properly when i fall. its like ok, nothing just happen. but thank God didnt make till my face, if not i COL. my hands got one red line nvm but no to my face. but say e truth, who could want it to be happen on their face. =.=

Hmms. andand. Amazing man! today okok ar, kinda lazy to wake up den decided to sleep 5min more and again 5 min more den after that wake up go prepare and stuff and after that i realise i gonna be late plus i miss e bus. and im so dono how to say cos i gonna be late and e bus is like ahdui. so nvm. den i prayed lor. and Guess what, Prayer really do wonders. really. trust me. cos i just pray a simple and short prayer, and ask God to strengthen e Bus, Jiayou for e bus and not so many traffic light and ask e driver to drive faster and i pray that i'll not reach bus stop on e dot but i'll reach early so that i can reach my shop eariler. and guess what! e bus went faster and there was no traffic light cos u know why cos my bus pass by Highways de. so a few of traffic light only. and i was like wow.. and surprisely i reach my shop at 9:25AM. wow! im not late and im early! Prayers really works. even just a lil prayers. its e trust and Faith u see.

Hmms. woah~ 11 days more to e end of July, 20 days more to Spore's Birdae and 21 days more to someone special's birdae, and 23 days more to a gal's birdae! woah. AUG is always e most exciting mth. everyone agree right. woah~ so yea. think my Aug work less. sadded. but nvm. so yea lor. its alrights! (: Yea, so ya. tmr sch again den work again. i don like wkdays. lalalala~ nvm ar. don like also must live wkdays. so yea lor. andand. haha! fri gg 'minds cafe'. Hey, my Frens! if u're reading this, join me man! its gonna be fun and great ar. really. i cfm chop u. lets go there relac and chill, studies too stress ar, den go there have fun lor.

*a soft heart.

wow.

2008-07-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~ another day have pass. svc was great! always and always, its so great. word was good. super good. but im upset about sth. why? does e Word really so bored until can felt asleep, until some can become like 'strengthless'? i dono. if u think im talking about u means u, if not mean not u lor. its ur heart, u see. *are u treasuring and respecting e word of God or rather Pst? Pst is flying here and there and we wont be seeing him every wk u see. and we must show him respect by sitting up straight and not those 'bo chap attiude'. im just disappointed.

Hmms. oh man! =.= many days didnt work le. and im starting work again. tell u, its really feel good that when im not working. but e moment i think of work, sians. work is a killer to my everything. but this is e only way. i did imaging when i stop working, think i'll just jump off e sea. Yes, and i will. but think its bcos im studying and working at e same time right now so i'll feel tired and stuff. and have been negected my studies, no time to study or anything. poor studies. but nvm, i've no interest in my studies anw since e day i work le. and its really slowly one day follow by one day, studies is decreasing. but if no work, i think i'll concenrate on my studies even more BUT no way i gonna quit my work.

Hmms. anw. yea lor. was thinking loads of things. this and that, that and this. and e conclusion is ...... end up, im e one who is facing everything and Yes, im tired. but one thing i know that He's w me. how i wish He can come and bring me to His side. and w Him i'll have e Love, protection and care. and everything gonna be so peaceful. wow. so amazing. and yea, in e end. im e one who gonna make e decision to move on and stay on. but e moment i begin to see myself, a diff me. wow. But just like what Pst preach today, e devil will give u another vision. irriatating devil. go away la. devil, u think u very cool ar, u come near me i box u to farfar away den u know.

Hmms. again and again. God, are u promting me about my calling? today 3 ppl ask me about my calling. and i was like what?? what u said? Yea, i wanna. But... i know i gonna paid e Price. scarfice! Yes, i did imaging and i like wow. But i just don dare to think of it when i see of right now. i rather God will use a betta person den me? but anw. woah~ sth just brighter up CELESTE's day. got my new "OM" Card. its super solid nice can, pink colour de leh, ok la, to me its pink. i was shock and i was like hmms?? seriously, that card really make my day. i still rmb, that day when i being promoted by God. wow. looking back. wow wow wow!! now my next aim- MM! woah~ 'NO BUTs!'

*Even storms and mountain tremble, i'll stand w You.

Love, Cares, Concern

2008-07-19T01:26:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah~ today went Seoul Garden w all e U.R.S ladies. haha. not really all ar. some of us. had a fun and great day w em. and of cos e 'makan', i fainted half way thru e meal. and everyone was like saying 'Kim, u eat so less only den u Full alrdy?' waste money. But i really SUPER Full till i stood up running here and there to help em take food and make my own dessert. *Yummy. and i drank loads of Tom Yum soap. even Yummy thou werid! and i gonna tell u that i wont be gg there anymore or rather 10 years 1 time ar. and oh man! everyone come out, wah. cannot take it. e smile stick to us. and 1st thing in my mind is "PREFUME". at that time just feel like gg home and Bath but too bad, gonna rush off to CGM. (: and so irritating, e smell stick to me everywhere i go.

Hmms. and yea, of cos, CGM is great and awesome. don have word but kinda of PM. woah~ can sense e breakthru gonna happen soon. Yes, and it SOON. arent u excited? Prayers doesnt works when we do not have Faith. Prayers only works when we begin to have Faith. Just a mustard seed will do and we can move every mountian that is infront of us! and Hunger! impt impt. and our MINDSET! this word have been inside my mind for long. "a positive man thinks positive thoughts. a negative man thinks negative thoughts. Our thinking is within our control if we say we can means we can, no mean no. so Our ans is Yes or No? and e prob is if our thinking is negative are we gonna stay negative always or are we gonna chn? and a Positive thinking need Faith to believe." so in short is 'ME MYSELF and I' or rather 'YOU YOURSELVE and YOU.

Hmms. ahdui~! doesnt know what to say. actually. today is a very not bad day for me. didnt feel anything asin emo or whateva ar just feel kinda relac lor. but everything turn my mood away cos of someone. she always w/o fail turn off my mood. i just wish to leave this place ASAP. e only way i can go is HEAVEN. and e only person who i can really turn to is my Daddy God. He understand how i feel. He know what is in my Heart. He knows my everything. But God, im wondering, why why why? i doesnt feel like gg on But its You who let me have e Hope and Peace. i just wish that You'll come down and bring me up to be with u. i don wish to say much about this le. just feel so upset and blahblah! i wondering 'am i really her ??????' arG~! nvm. tired but He's my Strength. sometime i just wish there's someone who is on earth to Love, Care, Concern for me, and yes. indeed there is and e person is none other den my AH MA and my aunties!

*with You, i never be alone.

FAT.

2008-07-17T20:03:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~ nth nth. everyone, ignore my previous post. its my itchy hands go and type it out de. pls believe me. and stupid me. arG~! i shouldnt blog it up. im so damn to post it up. should post it at my another blog. know everyone is concern but still i gonna say 'e FINAL decision is in my hand'. so yea. and i gonna say 'BLOG' is actually a very dangerous "things" which we'll reveal everything. i dono about u but i will. so i gonna say i make a very bad decision of blogging. maybe i should set it as Private? good idea man! so no one will ever know what is gg on.

Hmms. but anw. Role Play is coming, NAFA test is coming and new topic of ACC is coming. all is coming. irritating. esp AFD, i haven even really stable some of e topic and cher gonna teach a new topic next mon. i was like. forget it man! and cher is giving us all e previous unit de revision and guess what. clever me, forget all of it le. i cant blame anyone, i cant blame my work or anything. e prob is ME, MYSELF and I! but nvm ar. die die ar. don wanna bother so much. (: lets see how its goes.

Hmms. andand, irriating thurs. i don like thurs. got 3 hrs break. and its was like so boring can. but thanks ANGIE for lending me her PSP. minus away e bored. and went to SW for e 1st time to mark e attendance but cher bring us for a "NAFA walk" show us where to run and here. so crappy. NEW running of 2.4. what a good idea so we doesnt need to run round and round. but NAFA is coming. and i din prepare. nvm ar. i know e end result le. (: and yea lor.

Hmms. woah~ ytd night, i play "Hide & Seek" w my mum. its my bro idea. and just nice when i was in e toliet and he asked me to hide. den my mum was sleeping and wake up sud and seeing no one in my room and she went over to find me all over e house cos she tot i run away from home cos its alrdy midnight and guess what, she even open e window and check whether izz i've committed suidce by jumping off from e house. i was like LOL. e funny thing is i was hiding behind e toliet door and she did open e toilet door and check whether im inside but its was too dark. and she search every where. and my bro bluff her that i went out. and after 5min, she on e light in e toilet and BOO, catch me! i was like laughing like crazy. and i told her, he ask me to hide de. den i hide lor. =D so fun. and oh man, i really SICK of Pizza. everyday there's Pizza in my house cos my bro work in Pizza Hut's Delivery man now, and fainted. w/o failed everyday got pizza, thats when i getting fatter and fatter. :x

*Everynight im waiting for You to bring me over to Your side.

studies!!!

2008-07-17T00:30:00.002+08:00

Hmms. oh man! Kim wants to CRY le la! cannot take it! listen up, not bcos she's emo. everyday i really dragging myself to sch. if i know i should have not go to HNitec. what's e prob right now? i really dono. izz bcos of my work. yea. i can say that mostly is bcos im working right now so i don have e chance to study much. and i'll faint la, after work i alrdy so Tired le den get home alrdy so late, i really have no mood to study. and i really wanna cry le. and ppl was asking me to quit my work, and my ans to them is 'NONO!' i wont quit if i quit how? but u think i'll really wan to work? if i'll given a choice, i'll choose not to work cos its really tired and it'll for sure affect ur studies de.

Hmms. look at me right now. im in e midst of really crying out le. i cant imaging if i never work. den i'll be staying at home 24/7, never go out, so don need waste transport fee. arG~! what to do?? it is proven that it affect my studies le. work is a devil to my studies. and now its only e 1st term of e course, and seem like im dying soon. i cant imaging if i really drop out e sch. really, pls don imaging w me. cos i know everyone will ask me to cont de. and 1% will support me cos they fall under e caterory of 'thinking of quitting sch'. now HNitec cant le, i can don dream of gg oversea to study le. or rather say poly 1st. Yea, my dream is to go to oversea to study since young but now, ha~! think also don think about it. rubbish! and i gonna say one thing now, 'KIM IS NOT GG TO FURTHER HER STUDIES ANYMORE, *if wonders really happen, u can smile if she will to graudate from HNitec 1st'. if not, HA~! i really gonna think loads loads before i really make FINAL decision and no one can stop me if i'll to make e FINAL decision.

*Let Your strength guide my feet.

Shower me w ur love

2008-07-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

Hmms. today no work. kinda feel so happy cos 1st time since i start working i've been working mon tues fri non-stop but now. tues never work, fri not working also cos got cgm. and really ar. feel so u know u know. and of cos i din waste my free tues, went out w 3 guyz, 3 bro. met Ed and Joel 1st and went to eat swenson ice-cream, feel so happy. craving for ice-cream. and after that went to meet my MISSED PaPa Terry. and had fun thou and ate too much today! cannot cannot. MUST STOP eating!

Hmms. but also, heard a bad news or rather a good news. dono whether want to cry or smile, seriously. i do not know what to say. i feel sad, real sad. know that we cant always be tgt. sure gonna leave each other someday. and one by one is leaving, seeing those who totally leave and not coming back, make me even more sad. and those who are not same cg as me. but all i can is to still cont e race lor. but im really sad. seriously. i can say he is e one in e cg who im close w. still rmb e 1st time i went in and he's e one who talk to me. and when im down or anything, he is e one who knows it. and he is e one who encourage me alot alot more den others. and i really dono what to say. but i believe he is gg to grow stronger den eva and gonna shine for Jesus ever more. and now i doesnt know who to turn to le. its like so werid. but its alright, still e same Heavenly Father, same church BUT u know u know. i thank u for all e memories.

Hmms. alrights bah. sorry everyone for being so "EMO". no, actually im not emo lor. dono who say i emo de. im alrights de ok. arG~! nvm. anw, today went to not really say 'shopping' ar. arG~! wanna buy this and that. but all i want is "IPOD TOUCH!' saw it ar Harvey Norman, oh man! its like so ""cheap"" can. but i gave up, cos i really cant afford. its like my one mth paid also cannot reach lor. saw it at 400++ but they said Sim Lim sell more cheaper. but think think ar, if use my paid hor, den fainted lor. but nvm ar. don buy ar cos its my 'wants' not needs. BUT I REALLY WANTS IT NAH! lalala. IPOD TOUCH or PSP? ah bush~ stop it. nvm. not mine means not mine. don urgue. but i know one thing is mine, is myself! aiyo. nvm ar.

Hmms. today my bro's birdae. opps. wanna buy cake for him actually but sad he gonna work and if i really buy and its so werid cos i never ever in my life buy cake for him de. but nvm ar, he got GF le. wonder what his gf buy for him. haha, im not kpo alrights. but haha! 4 more wks! woah~ just 4 more wks. im ~~not~~ excited! nvm ar. National Day also reaching le. and means hols is coming. and means i gonna work more. and means i gonna get more paid. and means my bank is increasing just one time and decreasing super fast? but nvm. nvm de. arG~! anw, tmr sch. so sians. nvm. (:

*Shower me w Your Loves.

Monday!

2008-07-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~ Today is Monday. ehh, nono. rephrase. Its Tuesday cos now is 12:48AM le. and yea. of cos, im tired. and sch ar sch. im thinking when does it going to stop? today really wanna sleep when cher is teaching BFD. sians bored and tired. and i cant believe that Kim will fall asleep in e Bus. today on e way to work, slept in bus. 1st in my 17th life, i never ever sleep in e bus. and today really dong~! and i was like, "Kim! wake up. later u miss ur stop, i tell u im gonna LOL at u man!" but also good la. cos i don need go work, i hope? ButBut. arg~! even if i did i think i also diedie must go work.

Hmms. and i just wanna find excuses not to go to work. but end up i went cos 'NO EXCUSES'! ehh. asin i mean cannot make Excuses de. and plus also of e 'money'. think of it, arG~! betta go. den end up, was late for work. cos HARI ar, box him den he know. tot he'll dismiss early but end up no. cos he always end early de. but today is a special day that he teach 3unit in a goal. and like i wanna sleep le and i just feel like shouting out 'HARI, can we go now?' haha! but of cos, i never cos im guai. and yea, im so Happy cos tmr which is today no work! and today got one werid lady came into e shop and can say she today not her day ar. cos every shoe she take don have her size. and she ask will it expand after afew days den she said to me 'don bluff me leh, if not i SUE u. no shoe den u ask me come in for what?' i was like saying in my heart He~llo! i never ask u come in is u come in de. and cos e shoe is popular so many ppl buy. Den i went in and told my In-charge den she come out. ButBut, haha! e lady is joking de. relac. and thats Awaken me. she went off w a 'thank u and a smile' to me. i was like *d0ts.

Hmms. and i doesnt know why just no one understand how i feel? so tired. e words pieces thru my heart when i heard it. Do i have Burden and concern? if we doesnt feel burden we wont be suggesting anything. or issit never suggest anything mean burden? alrights den, next time wont suggest anything. i wonder Do anyone see this heart? No, not anyone! im not feeling tired but just that why don Human understand? Sometime some ppl may say words that can pieces thru ur heart and really break de. sometime i wonder and wonder and yea lor. how i wish now is that 'You will come and bring me over to Your side.' when i fall, You're behind me. i can turn to no one But You alone. Tears begin to flow down when im hearing e song "Heart of a Servant."

*My eyes set on You in this race that i run.

God.

2008-07-13T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~ today ar. its SUNDAY! But i dislike tmr which is Monday. irritating monday, bored monday. sch again. im looking forward to my hols. can free from sch means that exam is coming? *fainted. left a few wks u know. and i don even bother. :x cos once i open e book and fainted le. but nvm. and im dragging myself to sch every single day.

Hmms. not sure what to blog le. cos i feel so tired now. arg~! BUT still have to do my hw which i doesnt know how to do. ACC ACC ACC!!! see e numbers till sians le. yea, i like maths but this make me dislike maths le. Thank God i never choose ACCOUNTING! if not ar, Kim is fainted half way thru.

Hmms. there're certain things which im VERY burnened(dono hwo to spell ar). im very worried about one person whom he is ALWAYS here for me when im down, he's there just like my Pa lor. and yea, indeed he really my "Papa-in-Christ". and seeing him like MIA. and im really worried. and i feel so sad that i never be there for him. and i dono what to do BUT finally, He replied my msg after 1 week which i called him everyday and msg. and i just feel so tired of contacting all those MIAing ppl and ya lor. everyone just din ans and reply and really i just feel like Stop calling them and msg them. and i told God that im tired, i give up in calling them le. But God know what is in my heart, and He replied just a simple msg. But all i can do now, is to pray for him and e rest. now i know if a person MIA, e person will NOT ans/reply e call. i cant imaging i don ans call/reply. no way. i cant even imaging.

Hmms. and yea. i WANT & NEED a *IPOD TOUCH*! but its like so "cheap" ar. i really want it leh. seriously. thou now i have one MP3 but aiyo. e song is like so less and hear and hear e same old thing. until i know which song is coming next le. and it only can put limited song only. and i really craving for it badly man! and im telling someone 'will e IPOD TOUCH drop down from Heaven and put it into my hands?' no, its impossible. i know ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE W GOD but haha i don have such Faith to believe that it will drop down just liddat ar. but aiyo. nvm ar. and alot of question is in my mind right now. nvm ar.

*How Great it is to be in Your Presense.

Healer.

2008-07-12T23:31:00.003+08:00

Hmms. Woah~ Hey! First of all. thanks to ppl who msg me and ur taggy. i appreciate it but Listen up, Kim will be alrights. But to me, its kinda a Big Bang. i didnt know. really. im kinda disappointed upset about it BUT still i thank God for e result. i do not know how to say but yea lor. i dono u know how i feel but seriously i do not how to say ButBut Prayers really works. and im really sad and i went home and cried so badly den eva. and i prayed. i really begin to let go every disppointment and sadness into His Hands. thou im kinda of blaming Him. But ya lor. and sud this sentence came into my mind. "God will heal u when u begin to let Him heal u." so just lift everything into His Lovely hands. and yea. i'll be alrights!

Hmms. and yea. past few days alrights ar. sch work sch work lor. what can i do? sch sians work tired. i wonder if i stayed at home and wait for money to drop down from Heaven, will it happen? will. tkk lor. and im so happy that i got my paid le! woah~ But sians ar. cos come and go. paid this and that. its super irritating. but 1 thing that i don feel irritating is i paid my tithe! cos i believe God will Bless me so i'll be a Blessing to others. andand, finally. Kim has brought one book. all in her 17th life. she have brought one and only book. BUT more to come. if can i'll get 1book in every 2 mths. so Yea! so excited. see, Kim is so super solid guai can. But can i throw away my module notes and read my bible and books only? *pls breathe if u say yes. yes, i know u're breathing. thank u!

Hmms. woah~ 29 more days to a special person birdae and also 31 more days. counting down. just 1 mth. and woah~ 18th. waiting for that day. feel so ADULT. yes, is ADULT. saw it? aiyo. anw. im adult alrdy mah. everyone agree right, i know i know. thank u thank u. just 31 more days. but can i stop at 18th forever? Yes, can. of cos can. arg~! but nvm ar. 18th is good. and listen up everyone. 18th not 14th, 15th or anything below. alrights? i know im tall. but don judge my ages w my tallest. Yea? (: andand, woah~ 8-11aug i got hols, 5 days of hols. 8aug sch cele NDP but of cos kim is a guai gal so she didnt go lor. and ya lor. so cool. but no sch should i go work? book Kim NOW before its too late, before i tell my Boss about my Shedule of Aug. but seriously, don feel like working e whole AUG. ~CeLeste Heng Kim Hong Loves 12th Aug!

Hmms. arg~! i wanna go shopping. so long i never go for shopping. now i got my paid and im so excited of gg shopping BUT arg~! nvm. now i just feel like eating 'MANGO, ice cream, subway, HelloKitty and more!' But cant cant. FAT alrdy la. Fat by 1kg. =.= and guess what, NAFA test is coming, 2 more weeks only! arg~! nvm ar. fail jiu fail lor cos failed so many times le. haha! nvm ar. Si Le La! some ppl say i Fat alrdy some ppl say i not Fat alrdy. who to believe? arg~! nvm. i still think i Fat alrdy! see ar, never join vball, become fat alrdy. But seriously. im missing vball so much! feel like joining back BUT yea lor. if i join back right, i wonder if i still have 'time'.

*im Flying in e skies tgt w You.

Disappointed

2008-07-09T16:51:00.005+08:00

*Can You see this Heart of mine?

Could You Heal it?

Disappointed, Sad.

Trusting You, Full of Faith.

But in e end, what's e result i got?

My Heart really falls when i heard e grade.

Never cried so MUCH for studies.

but im really sad.

If i had stayed e 3 days just to study real hard.

will things could be betta?

but im such a STUPID.

'C' is not what i wanna.

i may just QUIT sch this time,

and im serious about it.

all i wan is to get back to room,

Just to CRY it out.

This Heart of mine is DISAPPOINTED.

mixture

2008-07-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~! arg~! im so tired. this few days slept quite less. 2days add up also not more den 10hrs. one word to say im tired. but thank God for strength ar. w/o Him i think i'll be dead right now. but still can blog ar. few days i haven been updating. cos busy w some stuff. :x and really busy till got no time to go peepee. (: im so super slow can, do one directory also do like so slow and do more den 4hrs. haha. u know why. cos i was talking in e fone w 3 diff ppl w 3 diff calls mean this person hang and next call and so on, forever talking in e fone. and den on msn also and listen song and smsing also. see, Gals can multi-task de.

Hmms. aiyo. but quite disappointed. one names spell wrongly and its not i type wrongly its i always spell as that and i don even know its wrong spelling. and quite simple thou. Kim is not a Good Creative person. so PLS don ask me do anything related to creativity de. i'll box u man! =D don worries. let me box once will do. (: arg~! nvm. i alrdy prepare in my heart to get scolded de. so its alrights. *smile. everything gonna be alright! Yea?

Hmms. Yea. during past few days, its was great la. i couldnt explain how good was it. CGC's mtg, CGM, svc w Pst Mark Connell. and busy doing CG's stuff. *pengz. CGC's mtg was awesome, once again got a new revelation. and i pray and i pray hard that i wont think of any silly negative thoughts again. GET LOST, YOU DEVIL! and while worshipping, i see a heart shape that is in my eye. and its always in my eyes. God, what are u trying to tell me? u Love me? or i need to Love You more? and God, u asked me to Give so that u'll multiply it but Lord, what can i give? Loves? times? sacrifice? Hmms. question and question have been in my mind. but i know God will ans my question. (:

Hmms. and arg~! tmr sch start. and ALL of us was like. arg~! sch again. how? tired, sians leh. don feel like gg leh. arg~! my next hols will be on 2nd wk of sept. so long! and aug no hols except National Day. sians. arg~! and i scare of my BFD result. think tmr should know le. cher say everyone did very well and thats good but i scare i cant get 'A'. cos not many can get 'A'. arg~! nvm, Lord, i trust in You. Faith ar. u see. My Faith. (: haha. aiyo. sians. hw not yet done. done some. but haha. still quite a number of it din done so u can imaging its quite alot. but its alrights. lets see how tmr. (: i can do nth but in everything by Prayer. (: now 1st wk of July le. 5 more wks. (: 18th 18th quick come and stop there!

*even when i failed, You're there.

2008-07-03T11:51:00.001+08:00

Hmms. woah~ after 3 weeks, finally got BS. went for my make-up for FT1-Lesson 1. haha. finally completed my FT1 but haven take quiz but im so happy. finally, after so 9876543210 i completed my FT1, still got FT2 ar. (: and yea, of cos its awesome again. learn so much. its just so awesome. my foundation. wanna blog about it, a new revelation to me. But in short is 'no matter what happen, my Promise w God that i will NOT leave Him'. be it frens or any one who have hurt or anything, my walk w Him will sure cont till e day i die. "how strong is my foundation? if a super solid wind just blow by will i fall or i'll cont standing down there?" yea, again and again, got stupid thoughts of leaving here and there but hey devil! i wont let u catch me. u wanna catch me, tkk! u come near me, i box u!

Hmms. woah~! anw anw. i wont be working until next mon. aiyo. sad and happy at e same time. happy cos can don work but sad bcos no paid of cos. but still Thank God. and yea. today at work receive some calls and msg, sians alot. see and listen alrdy make me don wanna work, but end up leave work early just to get some stuff but in e end never get. arg~! was rather dono what to say ar. but nvm ar. past alrdy. but anw, thanks bro ED for e HELLOKITTY's pokky biscuit and STARBUCKS! woah~ guess what, thats my dinner. =D serious. and i know, u're waiting for my ice-cream right. don tell me u wan ah pek's ice-cream? =D

Hmms. and yea. Thank God for strength, super sleepy in e morn butbut "e Joy of e Lord is my Strength!" i prayed a short prayer and im not tired le. woah~ and hor. aiyo. today stomach and head not feeling well also. so went to toilet quite a few times lor. and hor, clever kim still eat TOM YUM magiee mee for lunch. haha! but nvm ar. by Faith ar. (: but anw. yea lor. i forgot what to blog le. and yea, AUG is reaching! is ard e corner ar. super impt mths. cos its spore birdae mah. and aiyo. its Joanne's birdae too! (: ahdui, not sure whether wanna take off mah. if i don take off, think ALOT ppl will come kill me.

Hmms. and arg~! im still struggling w some things. but i can choose to just stop what im doing right now and just leave. or rather i'll say, i'll just leave but i wont leave God. everyweek still go into God's of Presence. but i think i've given up alrdy. im just tired of calling and msging em. all i wan is to serve Him, thats all. but its seem like all has broken into pieces. which they broke it. and even ppl who is closest w u, may seem to hurt u. im wondering when does it gonna stop?

*i'll follow You. i'll follow You.

strength

2008-07-01T23:24:00.005+08:00

Hmms. LaLaLa~! Thank God for strength today, really. work 13hrs today. never work for so long before, and i was like. si le la. plus ytd night talk to someone for 2hrs and near to 2am den sleep and wake up at 7am. so =.= talks craps and loads of things. really =.= and its has been a long long time since we talk for so long le, hor bro? haha! =D but i don care, u must call me next time.

Hmms. and yea. thank God for strength today ar. really, was really sleepy and blahblah. wanna sleep in e bus BUT instead of sleeping i read my Bible! and God remind me again of sth again. and yea. really. seriously. of cos today 1st July. woah~ i din realise 6mths have past. and now JULY le. soon AUG gonna reach le. 42 more days! M18 lor, can go clubbing see M18 and blahblah. but if u know me well, i wont go to clubbing and all that de. so yea. But i looking forward to my 18 not cos of any present which i know every year will be e same. but cos im 18th! 18 can do alot of things hor. but 21 is e most best de. (:

Hmms. andand. today 9am reach workplace and haha. me and qi is e topic of e day. we're crazy to e max! woah~ we took fotos. and i shall uploads up! haha. but some only. if not my blog bom w fotos. and yea, anw, e foto brighten me up. andand, im eating pizza now! anand, thanks yingjie too!

*this is why i kept talking fotos. (:

*Our mummy.

*Oh yea. we're hardworking. *its just half of it only. *we're busy working. *and yes. we're ALWAYS busy. (: *my baby for e day. =D

Lord!

2008-06-30T15:04:00.004+08:00

My Jesus, My Lord

Your e Love of my Life.

Whenever You go

wanna be by Your side.

No longer i

But Christ living in me.

Serving You for all Eternity.

My eyes set on You

in this race that i run.

No longer my ways

Let Your will be done.

Make me a servant

My heart ever true.

Clinging to e Cross

I'll follow You.

*Oh Lord! Heal my Heart. Wipe away all my tears right now. what to do, Lord? This song isnt a song but its really mean from e bottom of my heart. whenever i wanna give up, is You are e one who make me Clinging on to You. i wanna leave But its You who i'll follow. i cant imaging if im w/o You, i think i'll just leave. just leave w/o a word. really disappear. even i will to leave, i'll still go to Your house only. But i miss W220! i miss JiaHui. my head is pain, i just feel so sleepy right now. can i just sleep and don wake up? Human may fail me BUT God wont.

Sentosa!

2008-06-30T12:56:00.004+08:00

Hmms. woah~! i had fun ytd. went sentosa w 3 CGs. had games and loads of fun but what i enjoy most is e last part where some of us stay back after everyone left. and playing in e water. had FUN! thats all i can say. Float Float Float, But sad to say that still dono how to float. haha! but nvm, in e water is so cool. so relaxing. and yea. of cos e last part of fellowshipping tgt while everyone leave and we still in sentosa. left Yuping ronald shuwei preecha ruby wiston xinying+2 frens and of cos me! woah~! Kim Loves small crowd cos its easiler to know each other more and hear every talks!

Hmms. and played vball. woah-ho~! my most satisfy things for e day! haven been playing vball since e day e compeition has ended, that is 1 year plus le. and feel so satisfy cos i finally touch e ball once again and can say thruout e day i been playing vball. and my hands are swollen. its so pain den anything else. so PLS, if u dare to touch my hands, i box u den u know. tmr i dono how to work also. my whole body is aching. and my face is red cos u know why cos i put on brushes mah. ahdui. and my leg got blueblack. -.- loads of injures but still i happy to say that i enjoy myself. and think and think. after so long, finally dono when is e last time, we had so fun fellowship le. thanks those who is there. thanks to those who had stay back after e whole event. thanks those who had dinner tgt under e little rain. thanks those who had created e fun in me.

Hmms. and yea. im proud to say i slept more den 12 hrs. reach home, unpack all my things and shower and bom into my bed le. so yea. i had some fotos to update too. e rest of e fotos are dono in who cam. haha (:

*Mini(Kim's) and Mega(Rae's) Version of GUESS Wallet.

*my Dearie xinying. (:

*NO! my face is not red, its e lighting.

*Nice shot, Bro!

*a few of W469! (:

More of You!!!!!

2008-06-29T02:28:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah-ho~~! now gg to 3am le. and im still awake. i doing nth de. but look at others sleeping lor. and Ronald, rushing his SOT assignment. and Jasmin rushing her hw and me haha. doing nth actually got ar, msning and doing what i dono liao. haha! anw. today is super awesome! svc awesome, PM is most awesome! Yea, God makes all things NEW! Amen! PM was rather diff. woah~ one word can put in, AWESOME. just awesome. Power of God! so power. those who are there, will know what im talking about. But im so excited of gg to SOT! heard that SOT is EVERYDAY!

*Falling in e Power of God. 1st in all my walk w God. can experience this way. to me, its really a new thing. falling e Power of God, Laughing in His Presence, Crying in His Presence. i just want MORE of Him, MORE of Holy Spirit! MOREMOREMORE!! i Just want to dwell in His House, in His Presence. In His Love. Oh Lord! oh God! i Just WANT MORE OF YOU! do not hide Your Presence in others places but come into my life, come into my heart! i welcome You into my heart, come inside of my littles heart that is desiring after You. melthing before You! im a little gal who desiring after You. who wanting to know You more and more. Oh Lord, see my little hands that is lifting up to You Lord. Fill me w Your Lovely Presence. (:

*Whenever You go, wanna be by Your side.

hands pain.

2008-06-28T12:02:00.002+08:00

Hmms. arg~! my left hand are pain. cant move so much. that part where my hand is connected to my body? understood? haha, nvm. =D why pain, cos of my _____. haha. dono what to put in. i fall while taking shoes. i slipped down asin i didnt manage to step on e shelt den i tui bomb. and i was like ARG~! and think i spring my hands that why my hand are pain.

*Take my five loaves and two fishes.

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

I hope it's not too small

I trust in you

uselessness.

2008-06-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

Hmms. lalala~! one day have passed. my emoing, my sadness is time-up! so cool! today totally don care of anything just go work. and time pass by so quickly that i don even know gg to close le. im shock that dono who close e door. but yea, today loads of customer. till i've no time to go peepee. haha! =D and makan ar. and yea. thanks Bro that u brought SUBWAY. i only ate 1/4 of it! cos of e sauce. =.= wanna vomit but nvm. thanks so much man! haha. u saw how busy we was. sorry i didnt talk to u. and u passed me e subway and u chaos le. =D but i appreciated it! (:

Hmms. and yea. Thanks someone too. msg me in e early morn where i still living in my dreams. thanks for e msg u sent! yea, i Please God, not Man! arg~! But i hate it, just hate it! my weakness point. got so affected by it. useless kim, kim ar kim. u're so useless. no words can describle u. arg~! whatever. i just wanna be a "Happy Gal". Yea, just had a ramdom tot that 'a happy person is more emo den a normal person.' cos a happy person hide everything inside and pretend nth happen. But all i want is just to be a Happy Gal. u know u know, 'HAPPY GAL!' a Happy Gal that make everyone smile, make everyone laugh. a gal that will make everyone rmb even when i die. i doesnt wan ppl to rmb me as a sad gal where always emo de. no! i doesnt want.

Hmms. but i feel so useless and disappointed about myself. i cant bring NEW BLOOD in. stupid kim. arg~! Sorry, Daddy God. i cant do anything for You. just cant. sorry for my uselessness.

*Cling to e Cross, i'll follow You!

arg~!

2008-06-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

Hmms. Oh! Crappy! im emo right now. im sad right now. Pls do not talk to me! :x arg~~! im afraid i could just leave w/o any notice. im afraid that i could just stop everything. after e call and blahblahblah.. and think think think and e person who i can really turn to is Daddy God. He is e Best of e best. why a leader have e most responsibly of all? den i tell u i could wanna be just a normal member. arg~~! whatever! ok, im sorry i cant bring new blood, im useless. that all i can say about myself. thats all. yea. im useless. useless kim! arg~~! whatever! Yes, tmr i'll be working. even good. i can ignore e call and msg by not seeing it, just work until i faint! thats it!

*My eye set on You, in this race that i ran.

short but enjoyable.

2008-06-26T20:33:00.007+08:00

Hmms. woah~ headache for a while this morn. den still got some time rush abit of my hw but still haven finish, do half way don feel like doing cos IDK how to do!! ): what's trial balance? how to do this and that? arg~~! do until i wanna cry alrdy. thank God for this person, haha. dono this call this person. call till he know is me. (: thanks anw for guiding me. howhow, when u left le who can i ask? so after that went out to meet Jasmin, Edmund and Joel. haha. i was late actually a few min but ahdui. haha. msg Jasmin see whether where is she and she siad at tamp den end up i wait for her den i hop in e train. and guess what. 6 trains have pass by and im crying 'JASMIN, Where're u?'

Hmms. andand. Guess what. im so sad. my bag is spoilt!! i must wait till i get my paid den can buy. arg~~! and dotdot things is i brought for $25 and others brought for $10plus. and i was like. arg~! nvm, i was telling myself, my is betta nicer. yea!! and ya lor. enjoy myself ar thou its just a short time of fellowship. went to have soup spoon and Jo.co Donut. woah~ haha. so full and SI LE LA! nvm, must excrise le but when. say say only mah. =D aiyo. i still have hw haven complete yet. die die. mati alrdy. andand. woah~ im in Love w Chanel's Prefume. cost $200!! what a cheap price! nvm.

Hmms. alrights. i shall be a guai gal. im gg off to do my hw le. hw is never ending. =.= but before i go, haha. i've some pics. (:

*He~llo, this are trees and skies. (:

*Love Kim's Hair. <3*Yawn, 6 trains left and where's JASMIN? =D*a new design spec?

*Guess who is this? Guess correct got prizes. (:

blue.

2008-06-26T01:39:00.002+08:00

Oh, well well well! (: haha! find it kinda cute. now my bed no longer have Pink colour ONLY but blue came into e house of Pink le. not bad also. Pink and Blue. Prefect~! ButBut, it is not totally Prefect w/o adding my HelloKitty inside e fotos. haha! e Donald Duck de is not mine, its my bro de. he copy me, he jealous cos my ah ma buy for me e cow de den he don have. wahaha!! den Snoopy de is Terry give me de. all so cute. think of it, ehh, how come so match. all in blue colour so find it cute. but my piink is more cuter den everything. this everyone cant deny it. (:

Pics.

2008-06-25T19:42:00.004+08:00

*woah-ho~~! haha. for more pics, go jasmin's blog. but go to e correct de. =D

Apples.

2008-06-25T18:31:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah-ho~~! lalalala!! its has been a 987654310 since i come back home so early le. really leh. think ard 1 mth liddat. serious, no joke no joke. wah. sot sot de. so today im guai, super guai. and haha. today no work. so happy but i 930am wake up le. i wanna sleep longer cos i auto wake up. sotsot de. den prepare okok le den went out! (: and more happy de thing is tmr also no work. i tell u ar my body, 'u betta sleep longer, don wake up so early if not i box u ar'.

Hmms. and hor, everytime everyone say 'one apple a day will keep e doc away'. and now 'two apples a day will keep e toliet away'. and 'three apples a day will keep ur body slim'. and 'four apples a day will keep ur FATS away'. and 'ten apples a day will end up in e hospital!'. =D bian tai de. er xin. those eat 4 apples a day is bian tai. super bian tai. and yea. i ate 2 apples alrdy, later gg to eat another two. :x cos nth to eat. but im not bian tai. =D haha. kim's normal. ALWAYS normal. *everyone agree, this i know. but why why why no mango? alamak, ahdui!

Hmms. alrights alrights. thank God for today. thou its a short time today. but i did enjoy myself. thanks for everything, gals. (: haha. and yea. gonna Faint le. cos i haven do finish my hw. all like gg to finish le den left only me haven do finish. so tonight and tmr is e time where i can do my hw. =.= sad, cannot watch my show alrdy. arg~ nvm. (: its alrights. (: andand, a BIG THANK YOU to XINYING!!! (: thanks for sending me all e fotos!!! (: LOVES YOU TO BITTS! =D and thanks JASMIN E AWESOME TOO, for wanting to sent me e fotos but haha u're late by a few hrs cos xinying sent me le. (:

*something which i wanna say that You Love me to e world.

mixture.

2008-06-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

Hmms. woah~ its midnight le. still early. =D tmr no work. haha! that why im still up if not i'll be in my comfortable bed le. haha. my ah ma super cute. she buy Cow de dono what for me. ask me to chn cos mine smelly le. :x ahdui! its smell nice. anw. woah-ho~~! crappys! gosh~ i got a nightmare ytd. scary. im so afraid. thank God my alarm wakes me up. if not... arg~~ now still in my head. super scary. nono. go away! im scared, im fear till my hair stand. why will dream of those thing?? irritating. cos nowsaday at work keep talking about that mah. *crappys! need deliverance.

Hmms. andand. Thank God for strength today also. im super tired. and i pray for strength and indeed God strengthen me. (: Thank You, Jesus! and yea, i think my knee abit crappy. pain~! and everytime cust ask me take shoe and if those very high de hor, i'll say in my heart, 'if u never buy, i box u, ask me climb so high'. but in e end also din buy, wear for fun. so irritating. come again i box u up den u know. =D aiyo. kidding only ar, do u really think Kim will box ppl de meh? i so good. haha. but in cust de front hor, must act act ar smile smile to em but hor. all my collegue haha, cust left le they !@#$!@#$ . aiyo. very cute ar they. and i got one mummy over there. and my PIC say got 1 'kai xin guo' and 2 'guai guai de' and im one of e 'guai guai de'. see im so guai.

Hmms. Yea! tmr no work. so happy. gg out. (: and i abit disappointed and sad today also. arg~! sometime things may just fail u, make u disappointed and sad and so on but need to go on. Endure. times, i didnt wan to move on but still gonna go on no matter what. 'Be strong, let not ur hands be weak, for all e good things will be rewarded to me from Him'.

*Whenever u go, i'll follow You.

crazy

2008-06-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

Hmms. eheh. woah~ what to say, Lord is You who give me life and i cant explain just how. okok, whatever. went to work. and yea. i find out one very effective thing when u're tired and bored. wanna know? BE CRAZY. lalala. talk to myself, sing praise and worship, look at mirror, look at myself, look at e shoe, talk to e shoe, dance in e shop, do execrise in e shop. Yea, this is what i do! Yea, indeed im Bored. well! smsed, call ppl but no replies as usual and im sick of it! was thinking about sth and think of it make me 'stress, sad, disappointed, tired' why why why? and i was telling myself "can one, go home pray cos God ans Prayers!" yea, tmr will be a betta day for sure, hor hor, Daddy God?

Hmms. alrights. anything, whatever! =D andand. ahdui, scare me. tot SGH wanna sue me for not paying e money. i also dono need to pay cos nvm ar, just keep e letter and see how 1st. (: and arg~ My Presense is so great that my bro din even know im back home. =.= and woah-ho~~! haha. Im back, im so happy. everyone was like welcoming me back to online! and thanks Awesome for e surprise fotos in ur blog too. (: u're just too awesome that i LOVE to u e max. and yea yea. my bro's birdae is coming and yea of cos National day den of cos what next hahahaha.

*Heal my Heart when it is Broken.

Kim's reputation

2008-06-23T00:02:00.004+08:00

Hmms. woah-ho!~ finished 3 question in 3hrs. =.= forgotten how to do le. sians. why? cos i got study. like real. alrights. whatever ar. in e end, i gave up, take a rest le den go grab an apple to eat and plus woah-ho!~ i found mango pudding. haha! den rest for a while lor den i got an heart-attack when someone sent me sth thru msn. guess what~! its my foto!! eheh, not normal normal kinds of foto but it was when im dono what im doing den someone capture my foto ar. and i was like, 'huh'. how come u have, Edwin! He's not there ehh. how come he have ar. i kept thinking how come he have, den he say he sent to everyone. den i was like. NO!

Hmms. nono. save me. i don dare to step out of my house le. i don dare to go CGM and svc le. or even sentosa outing next wk le. =.= nvm, i'll ask my twin sista to go on my behalf. no kim for next wk, its CeLeste le. and hor, tell u hor. don go jasmin e blog ar. cos aiyo. under 30 years old is no allow ar so pls pls don go in. if u really really wanna go in hor. wait till a few days den go cos e previous will don have le mah. and if u really die die die wanna go in hor, prepare to see a beautiful face lor. =D Kim's reputation GONEs just in one day. But pls pls, actually Kim is very nice de only dono why ar, she got a very big shock den she just now become liddat de. so whatever u see in e foto hor, don believe ar. who knows e person who capture my foto go edit ar. and who knows she miss me too much leh. hahaha! horhor?? (:

Hmms. ohoh. i feel so welcome. its like i never on my com for 21days and hahahaha. like sud like back to world liddat. but so sad how come don have 'pink carpet' to welcome me leh? aiyo, ahdui ar. and hor. i just e smell of my bed and everything in my bed leh. i doesnt wanna wash it so don wash it. i love my smell :x same to my bro, he din wash his too and his are like so smelly :x haha. told my mum and she said 'u all siaos one, only baby got smell mah den u all are not baby ehh.' no lor. my hellokitty have super nice smell also cos have my smell mah. =D aiyo. nvm ar. sians sians. gonna work tmr. i realise sth ar. will share it tmr. (:

*My eyes set on You in this race i run.

Healing.

2008-06-22T20:18:00.002+08:00

Hmms. YeaYea. im here again. oh well. another great CGM. went to meet Yuzhen for mtg for some upcoming event on July and so on. feel so excited! can see e revival and breakthru in e CG. YeaYea, Lets JiaYou tgt. in 2 Chr 15:7 said that 'But you, be strong and do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded'. God is speaking to me again and again asking me not to give up. Being a CGC, yes, i wanna give up, im thinking of giving up. my walk w God, Yes, i also think of giving up. my studies, Yes, i think of giving up also. or even my own life that is so precious that Jesus died on e Cross just for me. Yes, im thinking of giving up. But again and again.

To all CGCs or even every brothers and sista in Christ. Life is NEVER easy. Our walk is also never easy. whatever u do, just think of God cos its Him u're serving, its Him who u are looking to. its Him who u're accounting to. Yea, sometime man doesnt understand or doesnt see it, don worries cos u're not serving them, You serve e one who is in Heaven. Be Strong and do not let ur hands be weak for ur work shall be rewarded!! Lets have Faith that our Connect Grp will have a Breakthru. rmb w/o faith it is impossible to Please Him. Get up on ur feet and stay firm. Be Strong!!!

Hmms. actually, i don feel like gg le cos it was like so far den every wk must travel down all e way from e end to e end. and e fare is like, yea thou its only like $0.45 but ya. but end up, i went! and its was awesome. just awesome! CGM was awesome. *Passion! where's my Passion for e Lord? Get it back man, Kim! Build up ur Spirit man and stay firm and strong in e Lord!!

Hmms. and yea. i seriously badly need Healing. Healing Healing Healing in every where. my head, my stomach and my ear is SO PAIN. and sians. i still need to do my hw. haven even start yet. what am i doing, Kim! work. does work really matters? i need Healing. im crazy not cos im crazy cos i can forget e pain in my body where no one knows. its pain till im crying inside. its just so pain that i can use a knife and stab myself. arg! i cant rest cos i gonna do my hw and tmr gonna work. any good person wanna help me complete my hw and help me work? i'll be very greatful to u. i'll sing u a song. haha. (:

*My eye set on You when im in e race.

2008-06-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hmms. YeaYea. im back. alrights. i'll try to stop 'im back'. (: Yea, so im back to blog le. so yea. its has been a long time since i blog. during this 21days, there's ups and downs, sad and happy, disappoinment and excitement, tears and tears w joy. dono how to say leh. i just doesnt know how to say. u know u know. how i wish. nono. im not emoing but really i doesnt know how to put it into words. im just stuggling w sth. arg! but nvm, no one will understand.

Hmms. anw. Yea. times really flys. haha! im wondering what am i doing this 21 days w/o using msn etc. and e ans are work. i've been working when my hols start. and ya, tiring? yes, of cos will. but what keeps me gg to work is 'money'. if no money how can i get e Guess wallet right. Thank God they having promotion right now so i brought it quite a reasonable price. haha. and buy this and that. and im looking forward to my June paid. woah~ what im buying next? of cos not LV or Gucci. i cant afford, thou its nice but wait till im fully working and im not into it. but also. must save money, cos paid come and go. must pay this and that, so irritating cannot really buy what i wan cos paid here and there paid till no more.

Hmms. and ar. i dono what to write le leh. i only know i wanna vomit. eat too much. anw anw. get my result for AFD, i get 'A'. woah~! indeed God is good. 4 person got 'As' and im one of them! but im waiting for my BFD result. Mr Hari don wanna tell us. i pray that i can get 'A' also. He said everyone did well so mean i have very low chance to get 'A'. ): nono. arg! and sch is alrights alrights ar. don wish to say what happen so yea. its makes me don feel like gg. arg, whateva! =.=

Hmms. was thinking thru during this 21days also ar. im stuggling w sth that i've been stuggling for so long. what am i doing? 2 years plus le. what have i been doing really. Hunger and Desire before Him. i only have one life, what can i do for Him? i let Him down always. i disappoint Him. i make Him sad. will i be seen by Him even when im in e middle of e crowd where no one can see me. will He hold my hands when im reaching out to Him? will He push me away when im running towards Him? i dono. i really dono. i wanna serve Him for all eternity but what am i doing?

*You're e Love in my Life.

Happy Birdae, Qi!

2008-06-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

Hmms. woah~ its seem like i go dono where hols liddat. im back to e world, im dead and Jesus came to recuse me. =D haha. i miss my blog msn and frenster ar. this 21 days. i really stuggle alot, yes, its alot! how can kim survive w/o msn etc. reach home e 1st thing i do is on com. so ya. but i proudly to announce that im proud of me i and myself. haha. but im disappointed also.

Hmms. anw. wanna post this post specially for my Lovelys Qi! she's so sweet, so pretty. went to cele her birdae aft svc today! and its was great. awesome i can say. we go to 'New New York York'!! so full. and eat till stomach not feeling well. =.= woah~ i bet she's so surprise also. cos haha, e ppl sing happy birdae song tgt w us. haha. and she's like so PS. and we was like. haha! Qi ar Qi. ask u cry don cry. u not touched by us ar. =D haha. and yea, Thanks Qi for e Cookies from subway. haha. she brought it specially for ME! *touched

and yea. we brought "Guess wallet" for her. and i brought too, mine is e same as hers! woah-ho~~ finally. its good to buy gifts for myself thou its not my birdae. and im so in Love w it cos its my 1st most most ex ex de. so happy! haha. anw. yea. will update e fotos of cos. but well, i thank God for her. know she wont be able to see this post but still, i really appreciate her. she is awesome! i love her to bitts! and yea. im here to anncounce that 'IT MY 1ST AND LAST TIME THAT I"LL STEP IN TO NEW NEW YORK YORK LE. oh no! and that person must thank God i never go tell e boss if not u kena fired, pls work next time and don anyhow take num from ppl'.

*3 of us. <3*my pretty qi.*Candy floss is so nice. (:

*Our Guess Wallet. (:

Woah~

2008-06-21T11:31:00.002+08:00

Hmms. Woah-ho~~~~~!! im back! Finally. its over! im proudly to announce that im back to e world?? *sound wrong. haha. nvm. i only know im back le. (: Yea. so i miss my blog. i miss everyone who is tagging my blog. Thanks for ur presense when im not in blog. im surprise by all e taggers. woah~~ anw. will be back to updates again. (:

Last post of May

2008-05-31T00:52:00.007+08:00

Hmms. a lil Loves in my finger. His Loves. e Pinky heart. But heartz are red but why its cant be Pink? Pink is so sweet den red. red is like eww, so red like blood. imaging blood is pink. i cant imaging that. =.= my heartz is special.

Hmms. and yea. tiring. so exhausted. today sales not bad. and some cust are so !@#$!@#$. irritating! infront of em, smile smile but behind em aiyo. but nvm, forgive and forget. (: i still love em de. and yea. one person that we're fed-upping on have been transfer out le. so today last day working w her. i'll vomit blood and die imm if i cont working w her. and really gonna pray for Strength to be upon me le. my Hols are packed. work work work and still work. but don worries. still can jio me out de. (:

Hmms. and time really flys hor? now is June le. gg to Aug le. was wondering, how's my 18th gonna to be? i couldnt imaging. i also doesnt want to imaging. but im desperate for sth. sth that me myself also couldnt imaging that im desperate about it. but who knows. (: and thinking and looking back my past, was telling someone that 'what happen its alrdy happen le, we cant rewind everything and play again. so there's no need for a apology'. and yea. so what i can do now? just do, who knows tmr what will happen to me. i got One Life to Live, live it to e fullest. This one life i have, will it be a memory that everyone will rmb? and yea, me myself knows well about myself. im fearing of a lil things. But c'mon Kim, gonna 18 le, thou u don look like but my heart is 18, ok? so im 18, rmb. yea, its good to look young BUT not so young pls. (:

Hmms. so yea. think my last post for June. will be away from MSNing, Blogging and Friendstering. June 1 to June 25. so yea. but still, im contactable thru HP of cos. now very hightech one. or contactable thru meet up also. so yea. thats all for today. gonna KO le. tmr mtg YP to study in church. see, indeed im guai. (:

*Let Your Love fill me every single second.

yaya papaya

2008-05-30T12:06:00.002+08:00

Hmms. oh! LaLaLa! Crappy! my muscle hurts so muchy. ytd went running and end up see ar, me so yaya papaya. tell awesome 'aiyo, i don need steching de, wont pain de and i always never do steching de' see what happen. muscle pain, my tights and stomach there super pain! craps so much. learn my lesson, next time don so yaya papaya alrdy. =.=

Hmms. and yea, of cos. im guai. i went sch. and there's AFD test and i was like huh. i din know cos ytd i din go sch. so i stuck in e middle of e test but manage to finish. den aiyo, nvm, at least i know abit. and also not counted so its alrights. our style is 'not counted right, nvm one nah'. yea. and i gonna do 4 hw, see that e result of not gg to sch. more hw, others got 2 i got 4. :x crappy! and tues got interview for e HK exchange thing. aiyo, i told cher just now, cher cfm cant go de, 1 person can go only leh. so i go interview also wasted, right? =.=

Hmms. aiyo! work later wonder how i take shoe later. muscle super pain. climb one step, ouch one time. :x and i'll be MIA-ing for 21days. so u wont see me on msn. still decising whether to MIA-ing on com mah. so if u wanna talk to me in msn, quick talk this 2 days. if not, no kim le. But He~llo, still got HP but how i wish i can MIA-ing that also. alrights ar. so yea, gonna chao for work le. (:

*My Heartbeat beats in Your Loves.

w u

2008-05-29T22:19:00.004+08:00

Hmms. woah~ tell u all a secret! i eat 3 apples today! 1hr 1 apple and im eating e 3rd one right now while blogging. but apple is not my fav :x no one wanna buy mango for me. ): so no choice, apple and orange is e only fruits i can find but no way to orange. im not sure i'll scare of apples next time mah.

Hmms. and anw. i din go sch today. quite lazy and abit headache. so didnt go and i don feel like gg tmr also leh. how? think i can prepare to quit le. and wake up, i plan everything nicely le but didnt keep to my promise. wanna to study and blahblah but end up guess what i do? talking to someone in e fone andand don worries, im guai gal cos i did study abit. ehh, abit also counted got study ok. betta den never mah. (: and after that, finally. Kim went for a jog w awesome! andand good thing is i ran 3rounds and walk 2rounds. counted good le ok, if not all e rounds i'll be walking de. :x haha!

Hmms. and was quite irritated cos i watched e channel 8, 9pm show den i was like 'huh'. cos i miss ALOT of ep. den i dono what happen at all. think i watch 2 ep only. and i was like tmr is e last ep le. den nvm, don think i able to watch tv nowsaday. mon tues fri got work den wed got BS den only thurs but doubt my thurs also free le cos i planning to work also if can. (:

Hmms. and i realise. nowsaday i blog alot alot alot. one day can blog alot. and sometime i can just don blog. den when i blog alot and i realise quite a number of em don update. and i was like, why so opp seh. ppl like haha, u should know who are u ar, those who in my liink lor. i got liink thru de ok just that i din tag.

Hmms. andand. Yea, nth is easy. is getting hard and harder. at first i tot after that, it'll be quite dis-stress le. but end up. im getting fearful and stressful each and everyday. and i was just telling myself, i miss Jiahui and Yuzhen soo much. wanna aim for my calling but what to do? arg! a beautiful imagination become a broken imagination le. im so fearful and stressful to go on le. and its just like a mirror have just broke infront of me. its make me feel like gg away to another place. and i do not what will happen ar. 10 years later, what will i become? what will i do for God?

*i cant go on w/o You ard me. PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE ME.

2008-05-29T12:09:00.004+08:00

*Come here and cry on my shoulder.

I'll hold you till is over.

I'll rescue you tonight.

Let my arms be your shelter,

You're hiding place forever.

I'll love you more than life.

Daddy God told me this. (:

hols.

2008-05-29T00:14:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah~ LaLaLa!!~ i wonder, God are u speaking to me again and again? asking me not to give up. today BS, again He spoke. but God, i really cannot take it le. i cracking my head soon. this is really e 1st and very time that i just feel like giving up my studies again and again. its getting harder and harder. life will never be easy, studies too. every morn have to drag myself to sch. tell u all one secret. i don feel like gg to sch tmr, 8am! and also got swimming lesson, i doubt i'll go. i mtg awesome to jog! Yea, its jogging in e stadium, no joke. serious.

Hmms. and im so looking forward to e day when im gg m'sia. cos i can hide there! hope i'll stay there as long as i can w my cousins. but my bro say go Genting. den my heart was like saying 'TKK, u pay ar?' aiyo. wherever e place is, i just wanna get out of this spore where no one can contact me. and still rmb my sch have e exchange programme. and i was so dumb that i didnt know that HongKong is in China. but anw, i really hope i can go ehh. can hide there even more, if able to go. will go ard 1 mth. but cher said only 1 person in every class in Biz Course can go only. and not only just fill in e form but need Interview. sians alot. cfm cant go de mah. its like 0.0001% de chances leh. they cfm will choose those good student.

Hmms. and im counting down to 'Camp X'. 9-11 June! and im surprise that my cher actually rmb it. and i must really die die must study super hard for my BFD le. i still rmb he said, 'make sure u study hard, if not u're gonna repent e rest of ur life'. but look now what happen, all e progress test, i did so badly until i need stay back next wk for lecture! :x sorry cher. haha! wo bu shi gu yi de ar. but i promise ar, e exam i'll score well for u to see! Lord, i dono what to do, But God. i wanna trust in You even thou im away for my lesson to go for e Camp. and i pray that You'll help me, Holy Spirit, Help me to rmb everything i have studies. and Kim gonna study for BFD le, no joke. cannot slack le. no time alrdy. ~Kim, c'mon! study hard before i beat ur backside or before i throw away all Your Hellokitty!

*Lets Your arms be my Shelter.

who?

2008-05-28T01:23:00.003+08:00

*who do u think of when u saw HelloKitty?

*who do u think of when u saw Piink colour?

*who do u think of when u Look up into e Skies?

*who do u think of when u saw a 'CROSS'?

LaLaLa

2008-05-28T00:35:00.003+08:00

Hmms. woah~ Thank God for protection again. cos i fall but didnt injure. din manage to step onto it so slip down and i fly cos im "Superwoman". who ask my leg so "long". but so far im still doing alrights cos i haven injure till very jialat ar. cos my collegue all injure and got scar de. :x and dono why today de cust want me to climb up and down. and now i know its hard to 'sell shoe' cos u'll feel pek chek of e cust. so please, if u wanna buy shoe next time, Please Please don take this and that, end up didnt buy. But thank God for a fren over there ar. she helps me everytime not like somebody else who "sabo" me. and of cos every workplace there's gossip and BlahBlah. and all i do is here in and there out. (: Lord, Let Your Peace fills every hearts.

Hmms. and Yea! just finish my hw so i can blog. my brain crack lor cos of e hw. think and think but dono how to do den aiya just do lor. aiyo. why does ppl keep reminding of 'giving up studies'. some of us was like 'ya lor ya lor, i also don wanna study le, so stress can.' same thoughts. exam is 2 weeks times. how i wish i can burn my notes and drink it so i can rmb everything! and im think im guai, in e bus study my BFD lor while on e way to work.

Hmms. think and think, i realise, its has been a long long time since i go SHOPPING and relac le! oh no, i really want to go out. i wanna watch movie and do so many things. But i cant, sch work bs cgm svc. what else? Oh God, enlarge my capacity! and Lord, Let ur Blessing pour upon me. i need Financial Breakthru. multipitly my bank acc. 1 digit is not nice. now, im looking forward to my paid. But not much, come and go, end up cant buy anything for myself. so i told my PIC that i wanna chiong work on my hols so put me more. but in e middle of june, gonna go m'sia and "hide".

but i really thank God for strength ar. yawn so much but didnt sleep. cos im "Superwoman". need to go recuse ppl de. so anything hor, just ring me up and i'll go recuse u. *Like real. He~llo! think i'll be sleeping like a hellokitty. no matter how u call always cant wait up cos she's not a human. But anw. Thank God for e classmates i had. today no lesson but went to Vegetable Farm and slept in e bus while in e journey cos im tired. and after that went Pizza and makan w some of em. and its was great ar. they're super awesome.

*all e while, You're carrying me thru e Journey.

2008-05-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hmms. Oh Daddy God! enlarge my capacity. enlarge my mind. enlarge my strength. enlarge my Love. enlarge my Heart. enlarge my thoughts. what can i really do for You? im in e midst of giving up everything, yes and i mean EVERYTHING in my life. my studies, my CGC, my life or even my walk w God. there's only one word in my mind right now "give up!" just flash thru me always and i cant get rid of it! orh. Crappy! Devil hit and i fall, hit and fall. Stupid Devil! GO AWAY! don pour negative thoughts into my mind! and was blogging about Giving up and ytd during svc and today CGM, God spoke to me so many times. "DO NOT GIVE UP..."

But God, are u there? im tired, im disappointed, im sad, im discouarge, im stress by certain things of my life again and again. and i really feel so tired and burned up. i came to a point where my mind is mindless. e moment i begin to think my head hurts. and ya, of cos everyone will get tired. who on earth wont get tired de? and yea. Ytd Pst Tan preach a very good msg. e last point hit my heart so strong. "Example of Brokeness". all this im gg thru right now is an example to people. But Kim, are u gonna cont to move on or just give up? everything happen for a reason. i must Give Thanks in ALL my circumstance. (:

and Beside that. think its my last time to tell anyone what is gg on in my life and how i feel. im SORRY to trouble those i've told my probs to. and i knows no one will ever want to hear of it. and everyone is tired of hearing. and still e best things is to keep everything to myself. that e only ways i can find to share my probs. don say to me "its alrights, just tell me, im willing to listen". oh Craps! fine. i wont share anymore. no more. i wont bother anyone anymore, don worries. (:

and its so hard to please Human. what to do, God? i talk and no talk also say. and nvm ar. think i just don talk so much. so keep quite and be back e kim u all see e 1st time. and e Bible say, "Please God and not man!" i should please God instead. and yea. just watch finish e charity show for e earthquake show. and really must keep them in Prayers, seriously. Heart break when see e show and its really touching. and really Thank God that Spore is a 'safe' country. and i really feel burden for them but feeling burden w/o doing anything is meaningless is helpless. and how i wish i can just go there to help them but all i can do is call to donation. and i've donated! every cents mean alot to them now. and God say, "if u've lent to e Poor, You're lending it to e Lord". Lord, Bless me more so that i can be a Blessing to others.

*You told me who i am. im Yours.

protection

2008-05-24T02:05:00.003+08:00

Hmms. im proud of myself today! i climb so high to take shoe for customer! and its not just one time but dono how many times and its e HIGHEST. and i feel like im like a SUPERWOMAN! Fly~~~ But i jumped down from e 1st shelt and ouch~ Pain! and climb more make my head more pain. Thank God for protection. nearly slip down while climing up to e most high. and jump here jump there, listen up, its Jump from a shelt to another shelt, and im assuming that He's there to save me so i jump lor. Times flies when there're alot customer. of cos its tiring but gonna hang on! i need Your Strength, Lord!

*when im weak, You're strong always!

Happy Birdae to Yuping!

2008-05-23T12:01:00.002+08:00

Hmms. before i go to work. wanna say a Big "HAPPY BIRADE to my Double C!" woah~ Happy 19th! haha. This is Your Special day. enjoy ur day and of cos don forget to share ur present w me hor? :x haha! and yea. don get irritated cos this is e 4th time im say HAPPY BIRDAE to u! and yea, wanna use this time to Thank You for everything! Thank God that after multipication we're still tgt in e same CG but even thou we're not e same, i believe that we'll grow even stronger! Yea, So thank God for this sweet lil blessing that He've given me! *Loves u loads loads.

stupid devil

2008-05-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hmms. oh gosh~ one sentence affect me alot alot. "should i cont my studies or give up?" i get affected by it super loads. just one sentence i can dwell w it for just 2 days. gosh~ i tell myself NOT TO THINK of it le but i cant, it just came into my mind. den its like i tell myself 'ok, im gonna quit sch! set!' and yea, of cos alot of u will ask me not to but there is only one person who say can that is e person who ask me this question lor. if both add tgt of cos both will agree and say "Lets Quit!". what should i do now? if i really give up, i think he'll be disappointed and also i think he'll say "u've grow up, so u can decide".

Hmms. stupid devil! nowsaday happen alot of things. and devil attack me thru this negative thoughts. can u imaging that i even tot "why it couldnt be me?" why bad things happen to good ppl? one of my member met w an accident and its was so serious, was knocked down by BUS. and we'll so super worries. and ytd night, we kept praying and praying. and Thank God, he is quite alrights le and his condition is stablize le. Hopefully he'll wake up ASAP by this few days. and i believe God hears our Prayers and he'll be heal in e Name of Jesus! Bro, You'll be fine,You must Pull thru! You'll have complete Healing de! we'll pray for a breakthru for u!

Hmms. and again. stupid thoughts enter. sud i feel so stress den ever before. studies make me stress and wanna give up, got test past few days and guess what, i score super badly for e test. i cant memorise or understand anything. *Craps! that why im thinking of quitting sch instead. and i've lost e faith that i'll score well for my exam in 12June. and every morn i've to drag myself to sch even thou i doesnt feel like gg. and feel so sleeply during lesson. *CrapsCraps. and beside this also have that. don wanna mention it but someone knows what issit. it really not easy to be. need commitment and blahblah. and im on e way to giving up le. so stress and sad and everything. how i wish i can just shut my fone for one day, one day will do. but e one who i'll disappointed will be Him. in e end, im really sorry for any decision that i've made. but i think i've to wait for someone to rise up den i can step down.

*Just one touch from You.